--"If I stabbed you in the throat ( Read more... )

I dunno I haven't updated in a blue moon-- and it really was a blue moon last month so I thought what the hell? hehe but ya lotta stuff lately and coming up--- i had the 2 year anniversary, scary! lol. the bro's graduating and I can't believe it. Wasn't it yesterday that I was kicking his toy cars around ( Read more... )

I just need to fucking purge.

I fucking hate college. It is 212 right now- as in am. as in its 2 am and i didnt finish theory yet. b.c fordham decides its a good idea to have monday schedule three times this week and make my life a living hell. FUCK YOU. I have never been so behind. I feel guilty for deterring from HW to fuckin discuss housing plans ( Read more... )

uggggggg
ksjgoierghofighfhnhfkhj blaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh.

It's full dark in my mind, and I can't stand it.  Maybe tomorrow will be better?  I shoulda showered earlier- before, like when I had a chance. yeah.  I shoulda not came here- before, like when I had a choice. yeah.

I 
hate
this.

Why?

The sad part is I don't have a straight answer.

I need a prozac.

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Conclusions reached this week:

It hurts to have something yanked out of your jaw.

I don't want to go back. Don't tell me you miss me, it's not mutual. I hate college, and am only there because America insists on higher education to succeed.

That is all.  Now off on an adventure to try Tim Horton's with Catie....

- Ashley

So the past two days have been like ( Read more... )

Christmas Break: 11 Days.
End of Classes: 5 Days.
Finals: 10 Days.. and two on each day I have them. joy.

In closing,
[edit] I can't write it out here.  Why do I still feel like its a betrayal? I fucking hate myself...In so many ways.

~ Ashley

I don't eat anymore.  The blood coursing through my veins is slowly being replaced by caffeine.  I am always and forever wanting to be in two mutually exclusive places at once.  I am the poster girl for anxiety medication.  I am the girl who avoids meds like the plague (unless its ibuprofen of course).  I wish I was more ambitious so I didn't need ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving is soooooooooooooooooooooooooon.

That is all. Yay to that. Only a paper, 2nd midterm, and Ram Application to get through. mmhmm.

10 days 10 days 10 days

~ Ashley :)

Fuck you Fordham University.

They've created this vicious weekend known as "Family Weekend."  It has a lovely premise- families get together for a weekend and make up for the lost time they're son/daughter has spent slaving away at the "university." lovely, picturesque, norman-fucking-rockwellish.

But Fordham, you left a factor out of the equation. ( Read more... )