how to pass the past?

-le sigh-

i want to feel something more. i am happy but i want more of this happiness. i am selfish when it comes to him. blah, i hate having him there but not. always gone, damn the military but it's our lifestyle. i'll stand by him as long as he stands by me.

well, i haven't written in this in a while. i've been just writing blogs on my myspace. right now i'm watching army wives. yes, an army wife, watching a tv show dramatizing my life. how sweet ( Read more... )

i'm korea with nate and mika. we're such a fantastic family. that is all :P


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so nate's computer crashed. i'm mad about that. luckily we have our texts. lol it crashed when i sent a nudie picture. haha, it's like my awesomeness killed his computer or maybe my ugly face did the trick? i don't know. but yeah, no more nate and no more seeing my love ( Read more... )

so for about a week, nate and i won't be speaking. it really sucks. i miss my husband already. i want him to be with me. i want him. all of him. i want him to be here and share a bed with his family. i want to lean on him when i need comfort. i want to turn to him when i'm lonely. i want to have a goodnight and good morning kiss. i want to taste ( Read more... )

i miss my husband so freakin' much. today i cried for the first time in front of him. well, not in front of him but on the webcam. i just miss him so much now especially cause everything is so much better than before. i've poured my heart and soul into this relationship. so much effort and so much heart ache into this. i stood the betrayals and ( Read more... )

an entry dedicated to my love. oh i can't wait for the love we're eventually going to make. -sigh-

( here's to a love that could never ever be broken from the inside. )

so right now nate's on the webcam. i don't know what he's up to. but mika is playing with her toy and yo gabba gabba is playing in the background.

meh. lousy update. i'm just not in the mood to.

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so new years was well eventful. that would be a word for it. i spent nate's korean new year on the phone and we webcammed it for mine. mika knocked out before new year's but she partied on from 6 pm to 11. she passed out after that. she ate and drank milk like a beast. :P ( Read more... )