High School, Love, and Vampires...?

[pinkstarjrocker]

Okay so it's the third day of school and I still get lost trying to find my classes and stuff sometimes. And it's heartbreaking 'cause Sam and K-chan and Coral and Cody all have 2nd lunch and I have first! T_T *sadness* Luckily I have lunch with Alisa and Jenny and Mara and unfortunately Ty. His hair looks way better now. He re did it and cut it.

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[sanityplee]

My god you think to much, my head hurts. lol I am so glad high school was not this complicated for me. I had just survial to deal with. Meaning food, money, and physical safety. I would have never made it if I had all the things you do added to it. Realizing that you care for something or someone you should not or do not want to, is a big deal. Figuring out if it is your feelings and not someone else is obviously your first step. please try not to be so scared. no matter what happens, you will recover and be the stronger for it. Have more faith in yourself.

[pinkstarjrocker]

Yeah, faith is something I lack in myself... a lot. But I'm pretty sure they're my feelings... just not sure what they mean or where they came from. Interpratation is not my strong point. But I'm feeling a little better now. The atmosphere around me is reall beautiful. Fall is almost here! ^^

[sanityplee]

OK, at the risk of being to blunt or even having a mature conversation, with a parents consent. I have a question. Is this guy good looking? The only reason I ask, is because you may just be physically atractive, but emotionally grossed out. If so then it is simple. Your horney. It does not mean you will act on it, it just means you will need a lot of cold showers. Please feel free to delete this if you want. I will understand.

I had a hard time with this growing up. I had my own physical needs, urges, or whatever. Then on top of that, I could feel the urges of others. I was insatiable. So I was a normal hormonal teen, times ten. I am not joking. I made a few bad choices, but I lived through them. Now that I think about it, I may be a very bad adviser on this subject. Sorry!

[pinkstarjrocker]

XD I almost choked at the word horney! No it's not a phsical attraction. He is somewhat good looking but not in a way that attracks me to him. It's rather, on a mental/emotional basis. I WISH it were physical because then it would make sense. XP

[sanityplee]

OK, I was so holding my breath. So relieved you where not upset. I wish I could be of more help. Have you tried deep meditation? I get a lot of light bulb moments that way. If you need some advice on how to do it, let me know.:))

[pinkstarjrocker]

That would be awesome! ^^ I don't usually get too deep into my meditation because I have so much clutter in my head that starts to surface when I try.

[x_phenomenon]

Fighting it won't work unless you know exactly why you like him. Not knowing is the worst part but once you're past that, dealing with being around him would be easier.

[pinkstarjrocker]

Yeah your right, I just don't wanna admit the I DO like him. >.< But a reason would help tremendously.