all right, this is getting out of hand when i post.....look, it's all over, done, finished, in the past, behind us.....let's leave it there........you (you know who you are) need to understand that when you had your indescretion, nothing was said to your significant other, out of respect for you to give you the time you needed to come clean......i' ( Read more... )

i'm putting this here for you to see (you know who are) no matter what comes down this crazy road called life, no matter what fate throws at you or me, no matter how bleak things look, no matter how much you hurt, no matter how much i hurt, no matter what.....i WILL ALWAYS be here for you in any way you need me.....because i love you, because you' ( Read more... )

well, i'm glad i finally came to grips with just being raven's friend.....it looks like everything's gonna work out with her and doug.....i don't think she'll ever want me in that way again.....that sux.....what's a guy to do? wallow in self-pity? fuck no, i've done enough of that.....i don't fucking know anymore.....i'm so confused, sad, angry, ( Read more... )

thoughts and emotions sunk down deep inside ( Read more... )

okay, my friends list is back, so if you're seeing this, then you're my friend, if not, it doesn't necessarily mean you're not my friend, it just means i don't know your lj....lol......i'm out.

lucid and flowing tears have now overcome ( Read more... )

here ya go ray ray....a journal entry just for you....you're sitting on the couch looking picturesque and happy with a beautiful smile on your face getting ready to roll a blunt.....whether i show it or not, you are so special to me....so this entry is for you!!!!

"thought i'd seen everything, thought that i'd looked inside but i, i just don't know who i am, guess i was wrong all along....still if for one perfect moment i, i could reverse this dilemma at hand, and once again feel like you, nothing could stop me from feeling this ( Read more... )

i'm so confused....i just feel like my heart is gone and all i want in the entire world is for it to come back....yeah, that was a metaphor. lol, i feel like i'm pushing myself to far....i'm literally afraid of what i might be doing to myself....my emotions are running wild....i feel like my life is a movie that i'm watching....you know how you ( Read more... )

i did it this time...god, i hope i didn't ruin a chance for at least a friendship with raven...but i believe my insecure ass just fucked all hope of ever being with her again....damn i suck. okay, i finally accept the fact that we're not together...it hurts, but at least she'll have a better shot at being happy...and that'll make me happy. so i ( Read more... )