send all my blood to you

[phoenix_moth]

....I'm coming to a surprisingly painful realization.
I really fucked up, or time just took its toll. I don't know what the case is but Lyle really, honestly is beyond giving a shit whether or not I exist at all. It's past being angry at me, being hurt, even wanting revenge or another chance at being my friend.
When he said he's developed an immunity

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a poet's words.

[speachlesstiger]

The word I used was actually 'Indifference' perhaps a little more then 'immunity'. A lack of positive, or negative, associations, mediocrity. Allows me to resolve damage done without intentionally inflicting any in return

Re: a poet's words.

[phoenix_moth]

I just felt like pretty much I've ruined any chance of ever being your friend and that actually kills me.

[speachlesstiger]

It would take a lot of time to build up a strong friendship again. Being depressed and wordless on my end does not aid the situation any though.

[phoenix_moth]

I know it would take a long time.
I just...
I miss you.

and now i'm not sure what to say because I just finished reading your journal (I've been helping with the babies all day) and I don't even know what to say now.

[speachlesstiger]

"Holy fuck that's fucked up! Jesus!" works fine.

[phoenix_moth]

Can I do anything?