It must be nice to get just about whatever you want, whenever you want it, without having to put any effort in. It must be fucking great to get a two week trip to Germany without having to spend a dollar of your own money ( Read more... )

I wake up today to a letter from Clackamas County Justice Court. They seem to think I owe them $300 for not having a life jacket sometime last summer. I already did some hoop jumping to take care of this the first time, this is bullshit. I don't have $300.

Its like they fucking know. Its like they are trying to fuck with me.

My last session of Outdoor School starts in less than a month. It has been my crutch for so long, I'm not really sure how I will be able to function without it in my life. Its the thing that gets me pumped up. Its the thing that gave me confidence. Its what I do to feel like I am making a difference. It is going to be very hard to leave that ( Read more... )

When you are really stoked to watch a documentary on human evolution / plants / fungus etc. and you already know everything they are talking about ( Read more... )

I don't know what to call it. When you force down enough anger, rage, whatever, and you suddenly feel calm. Like your brain was split open and all of the bullshit just flew out. Not happy, just completely empty of feeling. Then you just stare at the ceiling because it is the most blank thing you can find to look at. People can even keep yelling at ( Read more... )

You know what sucks? Falling into a mud puddle on your way down to the bus stop, making your ONLY pair of pants dirty as congress, and cutting open both hands and a knee.

You know what is cool? Having things to work on.

falling asleep fully dressed on couch = waking up earlier

waking up earlier = productivity

Therefore

I will never change my clothes again

Getting rid of the old facebook was one of the best things I think I have ever done for myself. The time I spend in front of the computer (and tv) have diminished significantly as a result. I've been using all this screen free time to get more writing done than I ever have before, and I've also been doing some painting. I feel really good about ( Read more... )

Can't sleep. Fuck everything.

It is getting harder to stay at my mom's every day. I don't even have a fucking bed anymore. I'm always bickering with her or with my brother. I just need to get my own place. Maybe then I can be alone without having to lock myself in the bathroom. Maybe I could get some fucking sleep.

Bitch bitch bitch.

I need to go camping.