is this what it feels like ( Read more... )

today is going to be quite awful.

i can already tell.

*sigh*

And today marks the day..
That i've given up on everything and everyone.

*sigh*

I don't even know what to think anymore.
Part of me died today.. and will stay dead..
I just don't understand... I feel so numb.
Without Jared.. part of me feels like its lacking.
Where is my opposite? *sigh*
And its the beginning of the end.
RIP Jared....<3...I hope Never Never Land..Treats you well.
I'll see you in the next life. <3

So I did it. With absolutely no help..I took the photo..I edited it. MINE. heh. <3 ( Read more... )

I just got done reading the journal Holly kept for me when she went to Kentucky. I seriously don't think I have ever felt more loved and more special then I do right now. Wow. Holly, I am so glad I have you.. You are the bestest twin anyone could ever ask for. I remember how much I missed you while you were in Kentucky and how those two weeks went ( Read more... )

I forgot how much joy writing in my real journal brings me. Their is just something amazing about graph paper, pretty pictures on the front and back covers, and black hearts that make me smile.
Holly, feel better luv. <3

Ps: Finally my little green star is smiling.. I shall name her, Robotic.. I don't know why.. I am in a good mood..

You can tell me everything is going to be ok while I am puking in a public restroom at my school. Will you even be there to hold back my pig tails? Apparently no one understands anymore..oh well. I'm getting the hell out.. and i have many plans. Its time to get control of my life.. chaos isn't for me.

*sigh* I had something to say.. but its not the right time. *sigh*

Please just make all the shit stop. :(
Officially mark me a flight risk.
I want out. :( *sigh*