I am just sitting next to Sebastian whilst he's sleeping and listening to Candy's poem on repeat because I feel so damn sad and I'm just making it worse. It feels like my heart is trying to crawl out of my feet and I am just trying not to cry my eyeballs out.
I can't even put into words any more what I want to say but I feel so finished.
Ugh, I feel so crap :( My blood pressure is low low low, I feel dizzy 24/7, have buzzing/high rushes and need to catch my breath. I know it goes away eventually but right now all I want to do is lie down on the floor and not move for a while because even turning my neck feels like I'm going to explode from buzzing/dizziness.