Graves/memorials etc are there to make the living feel better and to keep the person alive in memories. If it makes you feel better after seeing what you saw then buy flowers.
You aren't being too sensitive or weird. What you saw can't have been easy.
And I'm glad you blogged instead of cutting *hugs* sorry. my advice is usually useless XD
I think I will. I mean, maybe after I do that, I can actually drive down that road (which I have to drive every single day as soon as school starts back up, and even then I have to drive it to get to town) and not look at the orange markings on the road to show:
okay, the windshield was here, the body was here. And maybe I can stop looking at that field where the car was. Or flat out look away whenever I drive by.
If I buy flowers...maybe I can even breathe easier? ^.^
Thank you so much for the advice. *hugs* [[I'm really glad I didn't cut myself...it feels better to wake up this morning and not see it. ^.^ Yay for self-control. ^.^]]
even though I'm on hiatus *cough* <=== this is her ghost speaking to you I missed you and thought of ummm "peeking" a bit to see if smth new is going with you and I see this, you want advice and me "who sucks at these things" will give you some stupid advice as usual xD
ookieees first of all, way to go for blogging instead of cutting yourself, keep doing that all the time ;D
and about what you wanna do, ummmmmmmm I think you should do it "if only it makes you feel better" I think I think you're sensitive btw :P it's not a bad thing though *bites your head* so in short "do it"
and don't ask me how studying is going on
I'm slacking off almost the whole day *sigh* I went on hiatus for nothing but still XD I'll make a big assed update when I finish these stupid exams >_>
YOU TAKE CARE! *hugs tight* <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
im sorry, but, what accident may you be talking about?? dont tell me if its too painful>.<
IM SORRY!!!!!
AND WAY TO GO FOR BLOGGING!!!!!
i know this PROBABLY wont help, but i've been through A LOT in my life (there are 4 kinds of abuses: sexual, physical, emotional, and neglect, and ive been through all of them + more, i speak the truth) and i have not cut myself or thought of suicide once<= this probably doesn't help>.
here's a scene from when i was getting emotionally abused: ok, if you saw me irl, you would know that i am a VERY SHORT person, only 5'1". Now, my ex-adoptive dad, he was a VERY TALL, powerful man, almost 7' tall. he used to yell at me at the top of his lungs, so loud that the neighbors ACROSS THE STREET came over and asked if anything was wrong, and i would cry uncontrollably, and then he would yell at me for crying . . . just to give you a taste from the bowl, per say (lolol TASTE OF CHAOS lolol i laugh at my own humorXDDDD)
but yeah. in a couple weeks i have to publically speak at this event about my expierience, and getting adopted and stuff^^ at the Please Touch Museum in Philly.
yes, definitely agreed.
*hugs you back really tight and kisses you on the cheek* im proud of you too!! remember, you are ABOVE cutting^^
I'm actually feeling better now. All I needed was just to talk about it a couple times. I feel better.
*hugs* You are really strong. I envy people like you. I am above cutting...but...I lost to cutting on sunday. Luckily, it's only 1 cut instead of 20...but it's a little deeper and longer than usual. I suck at self-control but I am trying so hard. I'll get there one day.
I'm so sorry about the emotional abuse you got from your dad--but I am SO glad to hear "ex-adoptive"...thank GOODNESS you don't have to put up with him anymore. What would he scream at you about? Why would he scream? I can't imagine actually getting yelled at.
Is your family better now?
There's no yelling in this house...my dad calls me "bitch" instead of "Heather" and gives me a full-throttle silent treatment while he pampers my twin sister.
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Graves/memorials etc are there to make the living feel better and to keep the person alive in memories. If it makes you feel better after seeing what you saw then buy flowers.
You aren't being too sensitive or weird. What you saw can't have been easy.
And I'm glad you blogged instead of cutting *hugs*
sorry. my advice is usually useless XD
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Thank YOU!
That's great advice. ^.^
I think I will. I mean, maybe after I do that, I can actually drive down that road (which I have to drive every single day as soon as school starts back up, and even then I have to drive it to get to town) and not look at the orange markings on the road to show:
okay, the windshield was here, the body was here.
And maybe I can stop looking at that field where the car was.
Or flat out look away whenever I drive by.
If I buy flowers...maybe I can even breathe easier? ^.^
Thank you so much for the advice.
*hugs*
[[I'm really glad I didn't cut myself...it feels better to wake up this morning and not see it. ^.^ Yay for self-control. ^.^]]
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I missed you and thought of ummm "peeking" a bit to see if smth new is going with you and I see this, you want advice and me "who sucks at these things" will give you some stupid advice as usual xD
ookieees
first of all, way to go for blogging instead of cutting yourself, keep doing that all the time ;D
and about what you wanna do, ummmmmmmm
I think you should do it "if only it makes you feel better" I think
I think you're sensitive btw :P it's not a bad thing though *bites your head*
so in short "do it"
and don't ask me how studying is going on
I'm slacking off almost the whole day *sigh*
I went on hiatus for nothing but still XD I'll make a big assed update when I finish these stupid exams >_>
YOU TAKE CARE! *hugs tight*
<33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
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IM SORRY!!!!!
AND WAY TO GO FOR BLOGGING!!!!!
i know this PROBABLY wont help, but i've been through A LOT in my life (there are 4 kinds of abuses: sexual, physical, emotional, and neglect, and ive been through all of them + more, i speak the truth) and i have not cut myself or thought of suicide once<= this probably doesn't help>.
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I guess I missed it?
Sorry again.
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*covers face* *///////* omg thank you, im blushing
thank you!!*hugs back*
here's a scene from when i was getting emotionally abused: ok, if you saw me irl, you would know that i am a VERY SHORT person, only 5'1". Now, my ex-adoptive dad, he was a VERY TALL, powerful man, almost 7' tall. he used to yell at me at the top of his lungs, so loud that the neighbors ACROSS THE STREET came over and asked if anything was wrong, and i would cry uncontrollably, and then he would yell at me for crying . . . just to give you a taste from the bowl, per say (lolol TASTE OF CHAOS lolol i laugh at my own humorXDDDD)
but yeah. in a couple weeks i have to publically speak at this event about my expierience, and getting adopted and stuff^^ at the Please Touch Museum in Philly.
yes, definitely agreed.
*hugs you back really tight and kisses you on the cheek* im proud of you too!! remember, you are ABOVE cutting^^
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All I needed was just to talk about it a couple times.
I feel better.
*hugs* You are really strong. I envy people like you. I am above cutting...but...I lost to cutting on sunday. Luckily, it's only 1 cut instead of 20...but it's a little deeper and longer than usual. I suck at self-control but I am trying so hard. I'll get there one day.
I'm so sorry about the emotional abuse you got from your dad--but I am SO glad to hear "ex-adoptive"...thank GOODNESS you don't have to put up with him anymore. What would he scream at you about? Why would he scream? I can't imagine actually getting yelled at.
Is your family better now?
There's no yelling in this house...my dad calls me "bitch" instead of "Heather" and gives me a full-throttle silent treatment while he pampers my twin sister.
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