I have to be honest with myself.  I’m pretty much a completely different person from who  I was before my Return of Saturn (28-30 years old).  I used to only feel comfortable wearing old jeans and a t-shirt or hoodie, I hated money and politics.  Music and artistic creation were my refuge from the fakeness and bullshit of the world. Now I feel most ( Read more... )

I’m being honest with myself again.  I feel like I am going through the motions of life again.  I’ve lost any passion I’ve had for anything.  I try to go through my life and be successful and achieve things.  It’s all fake.  This lifestyle we live is bullshit to me.  Humans are a plague upon the earth.  I’ve been trying hard to stay above water and ( Read more... )

I'm not very happy today.  I was disgusted to go back to work after spending the last 2 weekends, which were 4 day weekends for me, in peaceful solitude wandering along the Oregon coast and then in Glacier National Park, Montana.  I felt so high on life and now I'm fading again, living in this routine life here in civilization.  Here, where the ( Read more... )

Yesterday was quite a day as I finally made it up to 10,080 feet up on Mt Rainier to the highest point where you can hike without a special permit, a helmet, and fee payment.  It’s a place high above the clouds called Camp Muir.  It was an amazing and unforgettable experience for sure.  I was hiking up, and then down the mountain from 10:30 AM to 5 ( Read more... )

Today I got out of work early.  I had a killer workout at the gym then went on a killer run all over Kirkland.  Then I went down to the apartment complex pool and jumped in for a refreshing swim.  It was 90 degrees and sunny.  There were about 25 kids in and around the pool, screaming and having fun.  I laid down in a lounge chair and stared at the ( Read more... )

I fell off the livejournal wagon yet again.  I’m going to try to get back on again.  Life has been okay.  I’ve started to fall into this extreme stasis lately.  I’m not happy, not sad, not angry.  I’m just calm and occasionally annoyed.  I’ve been watching a ton of conspiracy theory videos online and I think it has been bringing my mood down at ( Read more... )

Well, it looks like I’ll be working 10 days straight.  I just finished Day 7.  We’re one lab member short right now because Leslie is moving, and we are jam packed with patients, most of whom have special circumstances that cause us to have to perform a lot more complex work for them ( Read more... )

I have been running around 5 days a week for the last 3 weeks or so.  It’s been great.  I feel a lot younger.  I run down to Juanita Beach park and run along the water walkway while people-watching and then run up a huge terrible hill that only a lunatic would enjoy running up.  On the way up this sick ass huge hill is the best part because it’s ( Read more... )

Today I drove downtown in the rain, 9:30 on a Tuesday night, just to check out the late-night record shop, call it impulsive, you can call it compulsive, you can call it insane, but when I’m surrounded I just can’t stop ( Read more... )

No it’s not the name of a late 80’s/early 90’s cheesy R&B/Rap/Early Hip-Hop/Dance song (to my knowledge).  It’s the message I woke up with in my head a few days ago in the morning.  I’ve heard the saying that only Truth can set you free, but this message was that only Love can set you free.  I think it’s true.  This paradigm can easily become a ( Read more... )