I wish I had a source of wisdom to seek counsel from besides my grandfather. As much as I love him and as wise and learned as he is, I think he's a little out of touch with how life has changed since he was younger. I feel stranded.

I'm sick of losing. I'm sick of being on everyone else's schedule but my own. I'm sick of being sick of everything. I don't care about hanging out with almost all of my friends anymore and I'm totally fine with that. I'm sick of noticing the lame, insipid things people give a shit about. I'm sick of people being satisfied with complete stagnancy. I ( Read more... )

Overwhelmed with bad music and people who don't actually think about anything.

I miss my brother.

I'm so sorry for the way I've acted for the past several months. I've never been so depressed in my life and I'm letting it ruin the person I am. I can't even put into words how ashamed I feel. I've turned my back on my best friends and have disappointed the people I love more than life. I feel like some of the most important friends I have have ( Read more... )

I need to get over my fear of losing everyone and just leave before I end up dead.

I swear I'm the moodiest son of a bitch in the world. Earlier I was in the deepest pits of hell and now all I want to do is have a dance party, read, learn, lift, and not work.

Absolute despair. I hate waking up every day. I hate knowing some people. I hate alcoholics. I hate living with alcoholics. I think most people talk to me only when they need to ask me something or need favors. I'm either getting out of here soon or ending my life. Why the fuck do I post it on the fucking internet? I guess because I don't post it ( Read more... )

I wish I had all the time, money, and balls in the world to just become a pro at all kinds of extreme sports.

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Watching that muted and listening to various music is really fun. I wish I would've went skiing this winter, it's been a while. I want to learn to surf in my life as well.

Don't wake up, Travis. You piece of shit.