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[pengueehime]

My overall state this past week has gone from bad to worst. Which kind of sucks. I spent three straight days on the brink of tears/crying randomly. Super special awesome....not. One of the solutions I thought of while sitting alone and bawling (I, for the record, hate crying, which is probably why it was so hard/annoying) I thought that perhaps I

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[starlightfairy2]

I am so sorry that life is bringing you down so much lately. :(

I know I can't do much to help but I can give you some music that makes me feel a little better?

Smile~! :D

[nervous_nutmeg]

Sososo, awkward me is awkward. I usually read your posts and end up not commenting because I overanalyze my replies. >_>; But, um, I dunno if you remember me but I am Amy, from that awesome Takarazuka party a year(?) ago. We watched The Scarlet Pimpernel. :D ...I also visit you on Frontierville on Facebook. >_>

Some of your stuff resonates with me. I totally understand the afraid of people thing. And, I guess I don't really have any suggestions for that, because I don't know what to do either. Or, well, I'm learning? It must be difficult to do in another language, but seeing a therapist has been helpful for me, so maybe it would be for you? Though, finding the right therapist for yourself could be stressful by itself. It takes me a month until I'm comfortable with one (or, in some cases, never. >_<). The person I've been seeing in South Hadley has been great with me. I wish I could throw her at you. D

[deseretfirefly]

Being depressed sucks so bad. I am going through one too. It seems like all I do is work but I don't ever have any money to show for it- we are always negative in the bank- I have to do tons of overtime, which sucks because I don't even get time and a half for it (stupid union job!), I'm pregnant and feel like crap all the time- soo tired and headachey and I never get enough sleep, and I feel like all I do at home is cook, clean the same messes over and over again, and sit there feeling unloved and unappreciated because no one says thank you for anything I do, no one hugs me and says how much they love me (except Scarlette but when she does it for some reason it just makes me angry) and my damn husband spends most of my evenings at home playing stupid video games and talking to people that aren't me and it makes me feel so unwanted and jealous sometimes, and last night I tried really hard to be nice and stuff, and he came to bed but he didn't want to cuddle and just wanted to talk about the video game!!! I keep having these mental

[ravening]

I had no idea you were having such a difficult time in Japan. or at least I didn't realize that what you have been up against and trying to accomplish has left you feeling so depressed. Have you thought about talking to Narumi? She might have some tips or ideas to help you out with things? I know you said it is hard to ask for help but I don't think you should isolate yourself and not speak up when you could be getting some much needed and hopefully helpful guidance and support.

Music wise? I have been getting into the Twilight Saga soundtracks.. lol. I really like the music. I don't know if you like the Saga at all but I like the variety of music. Don't know if that helps.

Hugs

[fushialace]

Whatever you choose to do will be right. And coming home is not a sign of failure. If you need to go back to UMASS, then that's okay. You've taken on a lot of stuff, and maybe it's time to say enough if enough. So, you have options. Stay in Japan is an option. Go back to Umass is an option. Come back to States and nix Umass is an option. We love you. Moe's loves you. Whatever you choose to do is going to be fine and we will support you and be there with you/ for you as you need us to be. I may be moving to Johnson, but I have 2 bedrooms, so you will always have space at home. Right now think of what is best for you and talk to those you love and trust and do what is in your heart as the right thing for Melissa to do for Melissa. You deserve to take care of you for a change.

Lots of love hugs and smooches-

Mama

ps; you would be able to get health insurance in VT if you returned and went back to Moes. Just a thought. XXXXXX OOOOO