hey...time to enter the ring

[pegasus_girl]

So to the universe that cares, i am going to rant....again. I am constantly stuck in a vicious cycle. The Melody cycle. I love myself for who i am but that stupid nagger in the back of my head constantly is whispering things in my ear. The sad thing is these things are true....i know i am being cryptic. That is the point of a journal where i have a

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[anonymous]

I shall Accept (with a capital "A") this interesting line of deep philosophy - but with one caveat: Sure, we all have expectations of ourself (I plan to be storming the streets of Luanda in 10 years, commanding the Navy in 20 years, and running the country as my own personal fiefdom in 30 years. Will it happen? Of course not.), but I think it's even more fascinating to see how we turn out so different from our expectations. It keeps life interesting. And when you look back on your recent (and past) life and think about it, aren't you happy where you are right now? Consider if you had achieved those expectations. Sure, on the surface it would seem great, but what other unforeseen consequences would ruin that "perfect" vision or expectation for yourself

masks?

[anonymous]

You seem to know all about masks and from my vantage point, you've hit the truth straight on. I've dealt with that fear of being unmasked for a long time. And you also seem to have laid out that whole "seeing through your own mask" thing pretty well. I've never really gone through the whole confusion/anger/shame thing much cause because I just ignore it. Ignorance is truely bliss. And now for a complete change of subject... I hate my beret. It's soaking wet and so is my head now. Stupid felt thing... won't form properly.... Happy musing Mel.

Lucas (I still have a first name and it's not Private!)