and i feel like i've changed so much lately, but still stuck in the same place. it makes no sense.

i feel very, very sad today. i woke up because i had to take travis to work, and i got about 2 blocks from his house (where i go and see him EVERYDAY) and i just fucking broke down. i started crying so hard and i couldn't stop. i wouldn't tell him why, he kept asking what happened, is it him, did something happen last night after i left, etc... ( Read more... )

i want a boyfriend. and i want him to like me, and respect me, and love every single thing about me.

it's been almost 2 months and i still feel like shit. i'm still just as sad as the day it happened. i'm still just as heartbroken. i'm still just as angry. and still just as hurt. i don't want to be like this anymore. i can hide it most of the time, but then it just builds and builds and builds and there's nowhere for it to go...and i just ( Read more... )

i did something completely out of character for me, but it felt kinda good. i was at work, and there was this totally cute guy at one of my tables. we were talking a lot and i did the corniest thing ever...i left him a note and my phone number on his credit card reciept. and then i ran away and hid because i was so embarassed. the downside is ( Read more... )

i turn 21 on april 6th! i will be at kon tiki wednesday night at midnight, and i would love evryone to be there. even if you think i don't want you to come...i do. so come. my number is 250-2817. call me if you need to.

so as most of you know, i've gotten to possibly the lowest point in my life thus far. after getting my heart stomped on, i've had to move back in with my parents. something i hoped with everything i have i would never need to do ( Read more... )

movin' on up (movin' on up)...to the eastside.

22nd and houghton, to be exact.

sweet. i get to move out tomorrow. it's going to be so hard, and like, now it's totally real. this sucks. oh and not only am i moving, but it's into my parent's house. i'm leaving my 2 best friends behind. i thought things would at least be a little easier by now but it seems like i just keep hurting more and more everyday.

i finally gave in to the pressures of ( myspace )