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it's been almost 2 months and i still feel like shit. i'm still just as sad as the day it happened. i'm still just as heartbroken. i'm still just as angry. and still just as hurt. i don't want to be like this anymore. i can hide it most of the time, but then it just builds and builds and builds and there's nowhere for it to go...and i just break down. fuck. and the sad part is how much i want him to say he made a mistake, and i'd take him back in a second. but he never will, and that kills me. i don't even want to move on, and i know i should, but i don't. and i don't want to make friends. i hang out with him every day and it breaks my heart to see him and not be able to kiss him and touch him and i don't know what to do anymore.