i haven't written in forever this feels weird and makes me sad almost. my last post was something i really regret now to the point where i opted to delete it. i miss you daddy.

I'm sorry

I'm feeling so nostalgic tonight. I'm not sure why but I feel strangely compelled to do old things. Familiar things that give you that sinking feeling in your stomach, the good kind though. Sometimes I wish I could go back and relive all those good memories to wallow in their warmth and go back to all those bad times and laugh in the face of fear ( Read more... )

Yes!!! the lost poem is found, I've have been looking for it for months and searched over and over again for it and I finally found it!! in a place I had searched three times, I swear it's a miracle it wasn't there before. I love this poem, it has very special meaning to me, probably the most special meaning of all my poems so I was heartbroken ( Read more... )

ok so the initial scare is over (in response to my last entry)... so the deal was I thought I had leukemia, because I had all the symptoms the main one drawing my attention were these huge bruise-bumps all over my legs that didnt go away (and still haven't) so I went to my doctor and she thought it might be leukemia too... but they ran blood tests ( Read more... )

i'm so scared... i am afraid i am really sick this time...

why is it that whenever i try to stick up for myself, be stubborn and get mad i always end up being the most angry with myself... this is some twisted world we live in... god i'm such a failed feminist, i never stick to my guns, but i guess love will do that to you. i just hate being stuck in an argument or disagreement/misunderstanding. i'm always ( Read more... )

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Your Seduction Style: The Dandy


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So my throat has been infected by the evil strep monster for 11 days now, i hate being sick :( This ruined my whole spring break and now i'm missing school which is annoying, i hate make up work... the doctor gave me some hardcore antibiotics since the first ones they gave me didnt work, i hope they don't kill me, there are some scary warnings on ( Read more... )