Still not enough, chapter 8
Series: Still not enough
Chapter: 8
Written by: Parishs
Rating: pg-13
Summary: Reid had a nice New Years night with a gigolo he can't get out of his head (Reid's POV).
Sequel of the Yule challenge 2015 entry: Not enough
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta and encouragement!!!
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I held the door open for him but he didn't want to let go of my hand so we stepped outside together, bumping against each other. It was clumsy but it showed me that he was as determined as I was to keep the contact we had. Outside we realized how cold it was but we didn't want to go inside again, we had to talk. I leaned forward and kissed him softly on his lips.
"I never thought...", I started.
"Me neither", Luke said. "I shouldn't have come because I keep sending these stupid signals to you",
"I don't give a fuck Luke", I heard myself say. I had had my coffee but obviously it hadn't kicked in yet. Because I cared, it was a mind fuck every time he did something I didn't expect. But on the other hand, I had asked him tonight so who was to blame here? I liked to see him although it was torture and he somehow wanted to see me.
"It's a good think you came, I invited you and I like seeing you", I blurted out.
"You do?", he asked.
I took his face in my hands and kissed him again, more passionate this time. I felt his body shake from the cold so I put my arms around his waist and tried to warm him with my body heat.
"Yes, and no", I said between kisses. I felt him laugh against my lips but didn't let go, certainly not when he opened his mouth and my tongue slipped in automatically. It was like on New Year's Eve when everything we did went smoothly, there was no hesitation from my body nor from his and that was something I didn't have with anyone else.
It was something I played back over and over when we were not together; blaming the whole fluidity on his former job but being here with him in my arms, I only wanted more. More of his hands pulling on my hair, more moans coming from his mouth, his hard dick buried deeper inside me than possible. If it hadn't been so freaking cold we would have done it in my car ........
No. as horny as I was that was something I would never have done. If we would end up somewhere it would be in my bed, I didn't want this moment to be cheap or clumsy; I only wanted him in a place where we could do what we needed. I would take my time and have a drink with him afterwards. And if that meant that we didn't get a climax on the momentum we had, so be it.
I let my cold hands slip in his underwear and held his ass-cheeks in my hands. They were perfect like all the rest of him. I slowly withdrew my tongue and ended our kiss. We both panted hard, every breath leaving our mouths in puffs. Looking at him I saw him bewildered.
"I want to invite you to my house", I said softly. "I am not going to have a quickie here in an alley with you, I want you in my bed, or not. It's your call Luke; I want to respect your wishes and your borders".
Luke just watched me for a minute while I kneaded his warm flesh. I could feel the goosebumps appear so I wanted to get this over with, if he needed this much time we should end this and separate.
I kissed him again and pulled my hands out of his pants. "It's okay Luke", I said, "really, you don't need to violate your principals for me, we both knew your POV in this so I am glad with whatever you can give me".
"You are?", he asked stunned.
I shook my head. "No not really, but your wish to get your body back is something I respect very much, I don't want to be like the rest of the guys who thought that you could be bought. That's stronger than my own need. Although...".
"What?" he asked.
"I have to say that we are perfect together", I said softly. "It's so effortless, I just lean over and when we kiss...Jesus Luke, I don't want to spell it out, I think we belong together.
And I know that Casey thinks it's because you had so much practice that we click but I don't care, all I want and all I can think of is you.
And there has to be something Luke otherwise you wouldn't have kissed me in your office. And you wouldn't have an erection like you are having now pressing against mine. I can feel that you want me but I am not sure if you are willing to give up your idea of not needing sex anymore".
Luke took a step back and I had to let him go. He fumbled in the inner pocket of his jacket and showed me something, a card. I didn't get what it was immediately.
"I have been tested a few days ago", he said softly. "After our kiss I knew that this moment was inevitable and I was ready to give in whenever the moment was right but I didn't want to risk anything so I got tested on every STD and I am negative. I just wanted you to know that before we.....".
"You got tested for me?", I asked and felt my knees shaking. This was huge.
"Yes", he whispered.
"And do you think that this is the right moment?", I asked.
"Maybe", he said.
"Are you coming with me to my house?", I asked while I locked eyes with him,
He nodded. "You can get in my car Reid, I am sober", he said.
Was I drunk? From the alcohol or hormones? All I could think of was my bed and Luke in it. I let my hand rest on his leg while he was driving and I slowly moved it upwards to the body part that was still oozing heat. All I wanted was to take him in my mouth and feel him respond, it was the most honest indicator there was, his dick couldn't fake or lie, it would respond to my mouth in all honesty and I needed that, his physical agreement.
I heard him pant and that sobered me a little, I wanted to come home in one piece so I had to have patience. I let my hand rest on his upper leg and looked outside. He knew the way so we didn't have to talk. Silence was the best medicine right now, no words were necessary to express what we felt. It was lust combined with insecurities and need for confirmations that couldn't be given so we just sat there, enjoying what we had. The future would start tomorrow.
NEXT CHAPTER
Chapter: 8
Written by: Parishs
Rating: pg-13
Summary: Reid had a nice New Years night with a gigolo he can't get out of his head (Reid's POV).
Sequel of the Yule challenge 2015 entry: Not enough
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta and encouragement!!!
PREVIOUS CHAPTER
I held the door open for him but he didn't want to let go of my hand so we stepped outside together, bumping against each other. It was clumsy but it showed me that he was as determined as I was to keep the contact we had. Outside we realized how cold it was but we didn't want to go inside again, we had to talk. I leaned forward and kissed him softly on his lips.
"I never thought...", I started.
"Me neither", Luke said. "I shouldn't have come because I keep sending these stupid signals to you",
"I don't give a fuck Luke", I heard myself say. I had had my coffee but obviously it hadn't kicked in yet. Because I cared, it was a mind fuck every time he did something I didn't expect. But on the other hand, I had asked him tonight so who was to blame here? I liked to see him although it was torture and he somehow wanted to see me.
"It's a good think you came, I invited you and I like seeing you", I blurted out.
"You do?", he asked.
I took his face in my hands and kissed him again, more passionate this time. I felt his body shake from the cold so I put my arms around his waist and tried to warm him with my body heat.
"Yes, and no", I said between kisses. I felt him laugh against my lips but didn't let go, certainly not when he opened his mouth and my tongue slipped in automatically. It was like on New Year's Eve when everything we did went smoothly, there was no hesitation from my body nor from his and that was something I didn't have with anyone else.
It was something I played back over and over when we were not together; blaming the whole fluidity on his former job but being here with him in my arms, I only wanted more. More of his hands pulling on my hair, more moans coming from his mouth, his hard dick buried deeper inside me than possible. If it hadn't been so freaking cold we would have done it in my car ........
No. as horny as I was that was something I would never have done. If we would end up somewhere it would be in my bed, I didn't want this moment to be cheap or clumsy; I only wanted him in a place where we could do what we needed. I would take my time and have a drink with him afterwards. And if that meant that we didn't get a climax on the momentum we had, so be it.
I let my cold hands slip in his underwear and held his ass-cheeks in my hands. They were perfect like all the rest of him. I slowly withdrew my tongue and ended our kiss. We both panted hard, every breath leaving our mouths in puffs. Looking at him I saw him bewildered.
"I want to invite you to my house", I said softly. "I am not going to have a quickie here in an alley with you, I want you in my bed, or not. It's your call Luke; I want to respect your wishes and your borders".
Luke just watched me for a minute while I kneaded his warm flesh. I could feel the goosebumps appear so I wanted to get this over with, if he needed this much time we should end this and separate.
I kissed him again and pulled my hands out of his pants. "It's okay Luke", I said, "really, you don't need to violate your principals for me, we both knew your POV in this so I am glad with whatever you can give me".
"You are?", he asked stunned.
I shook my head. "No not really, but your wish to get your body back is something I respect very much, I don't want to be like the rest of the guys who thought that you could be bought. That's stronger than my own need. Although...".
"What?" he asked.
"I have to say that we are perfect together", I said softly. "It's so effortless, I just lean over and when we kiss...Jesus Luke, I don't want to spell it out, I think we belong together.
And I know that Casey thinks it's because you had so much practice that we click but I don't care, all I want and all I can think of is you.
And there has to be something Luke otherwise you wouldn't have kissed me in your office. And you wouldn't have an erection like you are having now pressing against mine. I can feel that you want me but I am not sure if you are willing to give up your idea of not needing sex anymore".
Luke took a step back and I had to let him go. He fumbled in the inner pocket of his jacket and showed me something, a card. I didn't get what it was immediately.
"I have been tested a few days ago", he said softly. "After our kiss I knew that this moment was inevitable and I was ready to give in whenever the moment was right but I didn't want to risk anything so I got tested on every STD and I am negative. I just wanted you to know that before we.....".
"You got tested for me?", I asked and felt my knees shaking. This was huge.
"Yes", he whispered.
"And do you think that this is the right moment?", I asked.
"Maybe", he said.
"Are you coming with me to my house?", I asked while I locked eyes with him,
He nodded. "You can get in my car Reid, I am sober", he said.
Was I drunk? From the alcohol or hormones? All I could think of was my bed and Luke in it. I let my hand rest on his leg while he was driving and I slowly moved it upwards to the body part that was still oozing heat. All I wanted was to take him in my mouth and feel him respond, it was the most honest indicator there was, his dick couldn't fake or lie, it would respond to my mouth in all honesty and I needed that, his physical agreement.
I heard him pant and that sobered me a little, I wanted to come home in one piece so I had to have patience. I let my hand rest on his upper leg and looked outside. He knew the way so we didn't have to talk. Silence was the best medicine right now, no words were necessary to express what we felt. It was lust combined with insecurities and need for confirmations that couldn't be given so we just sat there, enjoying what we had. The future would start tomorrow.
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