Fresh start: chapter 7
Series: Fresh start
Chapter: 7
Written by: Parishs
Rating: r
Summary: Reid is a neuro surgeon in Dallas with a burn out who tries to figure out what life is really about (Reid's POV).
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta!!!
PREVIOUS CHAPTER
When he drove away he created the same dust-cloud as when he arrived and he must have been as pissed as when he came here. He brought me a picnic basket filled with all kinds of homemade food from Emma while he didn't have time and now...
Now I had pissed him off because I didn't allow him to open my buckle. While we were kissing and groping against each other my mind kicked in and screamed that I was a jerk, that I had to think before I acted even though the click Luke and I had was unbelievable. His hands on my chest made it hard to breathe and his tongue, damn I got so worked up that I was ready to do anything he needed from me.
But just in time I started to think with my head again, before his hand would disappear in my pants and touch my pulsing cock. Then there wouldn't have been a way back, I wanted him so much that it hurt.
I pushed him away from me and looked at his gorgeous flushed face.
"What are we doing?", I asked.
"You know what we are doing", Luke panted and wanted to pull me close again but I was determined.
"Yes, it's called making a mistake", I said softly and turned around to be able to breathe again. Looking at him wouldn't decrease my heartbeat.
Luke pulled on my arm and made that I faced him again. "How do you know it's a mistake until you've actually made it?", he asked.
What a snake he was, why didn't he accept that I needed time or whatever. I understood that it was an anticlimax that I didn't suck his dick or whatever he was expecting of me but for me it all went way too fast. I didn't have sex in ages and I had kissed his brother while I was recovering from a kind of burn out feeling numb. I couldn't just pull a switch like he obviously could and fuck him against a wall, because that was the only thing left of my farm, the walls. I couldn't even though I wanted to, I wanted him so bad that every cell in my body screamed to grab him but I could resist my carnal desire.
"I am sorry Luke", I sighed and grabbed my shirt from the floor to put it on but he was determined, he walked to me and pushed his sweaty chest against my back while he kissed my neck. Slowly his hand started to touch my chest again while the fingers of his other hand caressed my cock through my jeans.
"Why not Reid?", he whispered. "We are both single and I can feel through your pants how much you want me. And god I need you, I want you to hold me and use whatever it is that you need from me".
"Anything?", I panted.
"Tell me and I'll do it", he said and bit softly in my neck.
"I want you to leave", I said determined.
"But why?".
"Because I can't do this right now", I said. "I want to start a new life here in this place and I don't want to get a bad name before I have moved my stuff. So if you want to give me time to figure things out then I will be very happy".
He panted in my neck and kissed me one more time before he let go of me. "Are you in love with Aaron?", he asked softly.
"I have no idea what I am feeling Luke", I said honestly. "I like your brother very much and we are going to work together on my farm so I have to figure out what we are to each other. I can't just kiss him and fuck you, don't you understand?".
"I don't want to ruin your fantasy Reid but Aaron doesn't do relationships. Is that what you want, a relationship?".
I turned around and faced him. "To be honest I don't know Luke, I have never had one. What about you, did you just want to try me and leave or is this thing between us something that is going to last?
He smiled. "You want to know if I try to seduce every new guy in town. No I don't actually, since my break-up with Noah my ex I didn't have much sex. I only work and sleep, but seeing you made me horny as hell. But I get it that you want him, many people do".
I sighed. "Luke, it's not about you or him, it's about me and I need time to get things on track again. I left my hometown to live in a farm because I have a burn out, I couldn't concentrate anymore because of all the people that were pulling on me. I want to make a fresh start here and see what I need; I can't rush things and I don't need more people needing me and I know it’s selfish but it’s what it is".
"No it's not selfish; it's honest and I like that and I appreciate it when you choose for yourself, I need to learn that too. And I hope you realize that I am not throwing myself at guys easily, I just.....I like you, a lot. I don't know what came over me to be so rude. It won't happen again.
With that he rushed to his car and slammed the door shut. Was he pissed or disappointed or ashamed? I had no idea but I knew that this was not the last time we would see each other.
NEXT CHAPTER
Chapter: 7
Written by: Parishs
Rating: r
Summary: Reid is a neuro surgeon in Dallas with a burn out who tries to figure out what life is really about (Reid's POV).
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta!!!
PREVIOUS CHAPTER
When he drove away he created the same dust-cloud as when he arrived and he must have been as pissed as when he came here. He brought me a picnic basket filled with all kinds of homemade food from Emma while he didn't have time and now...
Now I had pissed him off because I didn't allow him to open my buckle. While we were kissing and groping against each other my mind kicked in and screamed that I was a jerk, that I had to think before I acted even though the click Luke and I had was unbelievable. His hands on my chest made it hard to breathe and his tongue, damn I got so worked up that I was ready to do anything he needed from me.
But just in time I started to think with my head again, before his hand would disappear in my pants and touch my pulsing cock. Then there wouldn't have been a way back, I wanted him so much that it hurt.
I pushed him away from me and looked at his gorgeous flushed face.
"What are we doing?", I asked.
"You know what we are doing", Luke panted and wanted to pull me close again but I was determined.
"Yes, it's called making a mistake", I said softly and turned around to be able to breathe again. Looking at him wouldn't decrease my heartbeat.
Luke pulled on my arm and made that I faced him again. "How do you know it's a mistake until you've actually made it?", he asked.
What a snake he was, why didn't he accept that I needed time or whatever. I understood that it was an anticlimax that I didn't suck his dick or whatever he was expecting of me but for me it all went way too fast. I didn't have sex in ages and I had kissed his brother while I was recovering from a kind of burn out feeling numb. I couldn't just pull a switch like he obviously could and fuck him against a wall, because that was the only thing left of my farm, the walls. I couldn't even though I wanted to, I wanted him so bad that every cell in my body screamed to grab him but I could resist my carnal desire.
"I am sorry Luke", I sighed and grabbed my shirt from the floor to put it on but he was determined, he walked to me and pushed his sweaty chest against my back while he kissed my neck. Slowly his hand started to touch my chest again while the fingers of his other hand caressed my cock through my jeans.
"Why not Reid?", he whispered. "We are both single and I can feel through your pants how much you want me. And god I need you, I want you to hold me and use whatever it is that you need from me".
"Anything?", I panted.
"Tell me and I'll do it", he said and bit softly in my neck.
"I want you to leave", I said determined.
"But why?".
"Because I can't do this right now", I said. "I want to start a new life here in this place and I don't want to get a bad name before I have moved my stuff. So if you want to give me time to figure things out then I will be very happy".
He panted in my neck and kissed me one more time before he let go of me. "Are you in love with Aaron?", he asked softly.
"I have no idea what I am feeling Luke", I said honestly. "I like your brother very much and we are going to work together on my farm so I have to figure out what we are to each other. I can't just kiss him and fuck you, don't you understand?".
"I don't want to ruin your fantasy Reid but Aaron doesn't do relationships. Is that what you want, a relationship?".
I turned around and faced him. "To be honest I don't know Luke, I have never had one. What about you, did you just want to try me and leave or is this thing between us something that is going to last?
He smiled. "You want to know if I try to seduce every new guy in town. No I don't actually, since my break-up with Noah my ex I didn't have much sex. I only work and sleep, but seeing you made me horny as hell. But I get it that you want him, many people do".
I sighed. "Luke, it's not about you or him, it's about me and I need time to get things on track again. I left my hometown to live in a farm because I have a burn out, I couldn't concentrate anymore because of all the people that were pulling on me. I want to make a fresh start here and see what I need; I can't rush things and I don't need more people needing me and I know it’s selfish but it’s what it is".
"No it's not selfish; it's honest and I like that and I appreciate it when you choose for yourself, I need to learn that too. And I hope you realize that I am not throwing myself at guys easily, I just.....I like you, a lot. I don't know what came over me to be so rude. It won't happen again.
With that he rushed to his car and slammed the door shut. Was he pissed or disappointed or ashamed? I had no idea but I knew that this was not the last time we would see each other.
NEXT CHAPTER