Fresh start: chapter 6
Series: Fresh start
Chapter: 6
Written by: Parishs
Rating: pg
Summary: Reid is a neuro surgeon in Dallas with a burn out who tries to figure out what life is really about (Reid's POV).
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta!!!
PREVIOUS CHAPTER
Somehow the kiss cheered me up and made that I worked harder than ever. Was it because I wanted to have a place for ourselves if things got more serious? Did I want that?
In my work as a surgeon I had so much more confidence than as a "citizen". In the real world there were no protocols and guidelines to help me so I had to anticipate on what was crossing my path. And now a hot Snyder man had turned my world upside down by kissing me softly but insistently, he knew what he wanted and he made it absolutely clear that he wanted me but not exclusively and that somehow was a turn off for me. Did he expect me to have sex with him and accept that he also slept with others? Was that how things worked on the country side?
It made me think a lot but the adrenaline and butterflies in my chest made that I sat down and made a plan, based on what Aaron and I had been talking about. I had to prioritize because this project was a huge operation and I had to decide what I wanted to finish first.
The bedroom? I smirked but shook my head. As much as I seemed to need a man in my life I didn't think that the bedroom was the most important place in the house. If necessary we could make love on the mattress I was sleeping on in the small barn. If things heated up between Aaron and me while we were working together he would settle for anything I supposed.
So the kitchen would be a logical choice. At this point I couldn’t cook so in order to make something nutritious and healthy I needed a stove; I couldn’t eat my world famous sandwiches every day. Aaron had offered to come with me to the kitchen shop but somehow I wanted to do this by myself.
When I walked to my car an Audi raced towards me and stopped a few feet before me, creating a dust-cloud on my car and me. What the hell? Who was this lunatic that wanted me dead?
A tall man opened the door and walked my way. I couldn't see his eyes because he wore pilot sunglasses which reflected my stunned face. His mouth was a straight thin line and his cheeks were pale.
"What the fuck?", I asked.
He handed me a heavy picnic basket and wanted to turn around but I grabbed his arm and turned him around.
"Who are you and what is this", I asked?
"I am the brother of your lover and Emma asked me to bring you this since you don't have a kitchen, but I don't have time for this, I have to be somewhere else already, can you please let me go"?
I couldn't understand so much rudeness from a Snyder, the rest of the family had been so friendly and patient. Maybe this was the famous Luke who ignored the Sunday rules of Emma and got away with it.
"I don't think we have met", I said icy. "I am Reid, and no I am not your brother's lover. Who told you that? Aaron?".
He teared himself loose from my grip and sighed. "I am sorry, I am so stressed that I am acting like a jerk". With that he took off his sunglasses and with one look he seemed to change my whole universe. The sadness in his eyes swept me off my feet and all I wanted to do was to sit down with him and talk while I stared into his brown irises.
You want a beer", I asked?
He shook his head. "No thanks, I don't drink and drive, I have had a few accidents without alcohol in my blood so I don't think I should do that".
"I also have some soda in the fridge; maybe you need to slow down a little before you are going to drive again".
He hesitated for a few seconds but gave in and followed me inside my ruin. He looked around and smirked.
"You definitely need Aaron's help", he said and tapped on his soda can before he opened it. I got really nervous standing next to him because he had such a sexy voice and large eye lashes and very kissable lips when he was relaxed. It was weird that I felt such an instant attraction to someone. I wanted to keep him here and talk to him. I wished I was as blunt as Aaron had been because then I would have pulled him close to me and kissed him, but being me I just stood there 2 feet away from him stuttering about kitchen supplies.
"I was just on my way to the kitchen shop to pick out some cabinets and stuff", I said. "What do you think I should choose? Something that fits with the old farm or something modern?".
He looked at me and I felt the skin of my face burn and my heart race when I saw a spark in his eyes. "That's the good thing about your own house Reid", he said, "you are your own boss, no one can tell you what you have to choose, it's all up to you. What do you want?".
For a moment I realized how weird it was that I was attracted to two brothers but this was stronger than any reason. The effect Luke had on me was so much stronger than what I felt for Aaron; he literally took my breath away with his presence while Aaron just made me horny. Luke's question resonated in my head over and over again and suddenly I knew what I wanted. It was him.
I turned to him and pulled his against my chest. While I touched his hip stubbles I looked in his eyes and leaned forward. It was almost too much what I wanted but to release some tension that was building in my chest I had to taste him. Softly I made contact with his lips while I inhaled his scent. Expensive aftershave. Warm lips giving in. A soft moan.
I wanted to stay here for hours but I felt how his muscles tightened, how he wanted to let go so I opened my eyes and looked at him. "To be honest that was what I wanted', I said.
I couldn't read his eyes when he looked at me, was he shocked? Embarrassed?
"What", I asked?
"You also kissed Aaron and now me so what’s going on here; are you trying us both to see which one of us is the best?".
I smirked. "No Luke, Aaron kissed me and he shocked me with that, I liked him but seeing you I needed to act. You asked me what I wanted and all I did was to kiss you. Sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable".
"No you didn't but it was so out of the blue that somehow it didn't make sense. But I liked it.......because......”
He hesitated and I caressed his short hair. Thank god he liked it, now all I had to do was let him talk and hear what he had to say. "Because what Luke?” I asked.
"Because it's been a while", he said. "Because I keep men at arm length since Noah broke up with me. I don't trust guys anymore. One minute they seem to be into you and the next it turns out you are not good enough anymore".
I shrugged my shoulders. "I never had a boyfriend so I can't talk from experience here", I said.
"Why not", Luke asked?
"Because I never had the time to make an appointment; I was busy saving lives and I didn't have time for a life of my own".
"Well maybe that's a good thing doc because it saved you from a lot of heartache", Luke said softly while he looked in the distance.
"Noah has hurt you how?", I asked.
"He ended things with me", he said. "We have been together for years so he knew how important my job was for me but he started complaining about how grumpy I had become. It just didn't feel like home anymore to be with him, I felt like I had to walk on egg shells around him, acting more happy than I really felt so in the end he didn't want to be with me anymore".
"And you still loved him?", I asked.
Luke didn't react immediately. In fact it took him a long while to answer me. "It's weird Reid", he said. "It's like I don't have any feelings left, I work on automatic pilot and I go home to meet my family but somehow I do it because it's expected of me, not because I want it so much. It's true I guess what Noah said to me, that I have become flat, that nothing excites me anymore. And sometimes I think it's because I am a little overworked but I like my work".
"What kind of job do you have?", I asked.
"I work on the exchange market", he said. "I buy and sell shares".
"That's stressful", I said while I looked at him.
"Sometimes", he said. "I have made a lot of money for a lot of people".
"And for yourself I presume", I said.
"Yes that too", he admitted.
"I am here because I am recovering from a burn out", I said while I looked at him. "I have been working so hard that I couldn't sleep anymore but couldn't stay awake at the same time. I was also very flat; sometimes the grief of family members of my patients didn't touch me anymore. That was the moment I knew I had to stop".
Luke looked at me and nodded. "That's a wise decision I guess", he said. "I wish I could do that, but I still feel so responsible for my clients. Maybe a little vacation will do me good".
I caressed his cheek and shook my head. "That won't be enough Luke", I said. "You need to get your fire back".
He smiled and caressed my nose with his. "Maybe you are right Reid", he said and pulled me in for a kiss.
NEXT CHAPTER
Chapter: 6
Written by: Parishs
Rating: pg
Summary: Reid is a neuro surgeon in Dallas with a burn out who tries to figure out what life is really about (Reid's POV).
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta!!!
PREVIOUS CHAPTER
Somehow the kiss cheered me up and made that I worked harder than ever. Was it because I wanted to have a place for ourselves if things got more serious? Did I want that?
In my work as a surgeon I had so much more confidence than as a "citizen". In the real world there were no protocols and guidelines to help me so I had to anticipate on what was crossing my path. And now a hot Snyder man had turned my world upside down by kissing me softly but insistently, he knew what he wanted and he made it absolutely clear that he wanted me but not exclusively and that somehow was a turn off for me. Did he expect me to have sex with him and accept that he also slept with others? Was that how things worked on the country side?
It made me think a lot but the adrenaline and butterflies in my chest made that I sat down and made a plan, based on what Aaron and I had been talking about. I had to prioritize because this project was a huge operation and I had to decide what I wanted to finish first.
The bedroom? I smirked but shook my head. As much as I seemed to need a man in my life I didn't think that the bedroom was the most important place in the house. If necessary we could make love on the mattress I was sleeping on in the small barn. If things heated up between Aaron and me while we were working together he would settle for anything I supposed.
So the kitchen would be a logical choice. At this point I couldn’t cook so in order to make something nutritious and healthy I needed a stove; I couldn’t eat my world famous sandwiches every day. Aaron had offered to come with me to the kitchen shop but somehow I wanted to do this by myself.
When I walked to my car an Audi raced towards me and stopped a few feet before me, creating a dust-cloud on my car and me. What the hell? Who was this lunatic that wanted me dead?
A tall man opened the door and walked my way. I couldn't see his eyes because he wore pilot sunglasses which reflected my stunned face. His mouth was a straight thin line and his cheeks were pale.
"What the fuck?", I asked.
He handed me a heavy picnic basket and wanted to turn around but I grabbed his arm and turned him around.
"Who are you and what is this", I asked?
"I am the brother of your lover and Emma asked me to bring you this since you don't have a kitchen, but I don't have time for this, I have to be somewhere else already, can you please let me go"?
I couldn't understand so much rudeness from a Snyder, the rest of the family had been so friendly and patient. Maybe this was the famous Luke who ignored the Sunday rules of Emma and got away with it.
"I don't think we have met", I said icy. "I am Reid, and no I am not your brother's lover. Who told you that? Aaron?".
He teared himself loose from my grip and sighed. "I am sorry, I am so stressed that I am acting like a jerk". With that he took off his sunglasses and with one look he seemed to change my whole universe. The sadness in his eyes swept me off my feet and all I wanted to do was to sit down with him and talk while I stared into his brown irises.
You want a beer", I asked?
He shook his head. "No thanks, I don't drink and drive, I have had a few accidents without alcohol in my blood so I don't think I should do that".
"I also have some soda in the fridge; maybe you need to slow down a little before you are going to drive again".
He hesitated for a few seconds but gave in and followed me inside my ruin. He looked around and smirked.
"You definitely need Aaron's help", he said and tapped on his soda can before he opened it. I got really nervous standing next to him because he had such a sexy voice and large eye lashes and very kissable lips when he was relaxed. It was weird that I felt such an instant attraction to someone. I wanted to keep him here and talk to him. I wished I was as blunt as Aaron had been because then I would have pulled him close to me and kissed him, but being me I just stood there 2 feet away from him stuttering about kitchen supplies.
"I was just on my way to the kitchen shop to pick out some cabinets and stuff", I said. "What do you think I should choose? Something that fits with the old farm or something modern?".
He looked at me and I felt the skin of my face burn and my heart race when I saw a spark in his eyes. "That's the good thing about your own house Reid", he said, "you are your own boss, no one can tell you what you have to choose, it's all up to you. What do you want?".
For a moment I realized how weird it was that I was attracted to two brothers but this was stronger than any reason. The effect Luke had on me was so much stronger than what I felt for Aaron; he literally took my breath away with his presence while Aaron just made me horny. Luke's question resonated in my head over and over again and suddenly I knew what I wanted. It was him.
I turned to him and pulled his against my chest. While I touched his hip stubbles I looked in his eyes and leaned forward. It was almost too much what I wanted but to release some tension that was building in my chest I had to taste him. Softly I made contact with his lips while I inhaled his scent. Expensive aftershave. Warm lips giving in. A soft moan.
I wanted to stay here for hours but I felt how his muscles tightened, how he wanted to let go so I opened my eyes and looked at him. "To be honest that was what I wanted', I said.
I couldn't read his eyes when he looked at me, was he shocked? Embarrassed?
"What", I asked?
"You also kissed Aaron and now me so what’s going on here; are you trying us both to see which one of us is the best?".
I smirked. "No Luke, Aaron kissed me and he shocked me with that, I liked him but seeing you I needed to act. You asked me what I wanted and all I did was to kiss you. Sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable".
"No you didn't but it was so out of the blue that somehow it didn't make sense. But I liked it.......because......”
He hesitated and I caressed his short hair. Thank god he liked it, now all I had to do was let him talk and hear what he had to say. "Because what Luke?” I asked.
"Because it's been a while", he said. "Because I keep men at arm length since Noah broke up with me. I don't trust guys anymore. One minute they seem to be into you and the next it turns out you are not good enough anymore".
I shrugged my shoulders. "I never had a boyfriend so I can't talk from experience here", I said.
"Why not", Luke asked?
"Because I never had the time to make an appointment; I was busy saving lives and I didn't have time for a life of my own".
"Well maybe that's a good thing doc because it saved you from a lot of heartache", Luke said softly while he looked in the distance.
"Noah has hurt you how?", I asked.
"He ended things with me", he said. "We have been together for years so he knew how important my job was for me but he started complaining about how grumpy I had become. It just didn't feel like home anymore to be with him, I felt like I had to walk on egg shells around him, acting more happy than I really felt so in the end he didn't want to be with me anymore".
"And you still loved him?", I asked.
Luke didn't react immediately. In fact it took him a long while to answer me. "It's weird Reid", he said. "It's like I don't have any feelings left, I work on automatic pilot and I go home to meet my family but somehow I do it because it's expected of me, not because I want it so much. It's true I guess what Noah said to me, that I have become flat, that nothing excites me anymore. And sometimes I think it's because I am a little overworked but I like my work".
"What kind of job do you have?", I asked.
"I work on the exchange market", he said. "I buy and sell shares".
"That's stressful", I said while I looked at him.
"Sometimes", he said. "I have made a lot of money for a lot of people".
"And for yourself I presume", I said.
"Yes that too", he admitted.
"I am here because I am recovering from a burn out", I said while I looked at him. "I have been working so hard that I couldn't sleep anymore but couldn't stay awake at the same time. I was also very flat; sometimes the grief of family members of my patients didn't touch me anymore. That was the moment I knew I had to stop".
Luke looked at me and nodded. "That's a wise decision I guess", he said. "I wish I could do that, but I still feel so responsible for my clients. Maybe a little vacation will do me good".
I caressed his cheek and shook my head. "That won't be enough Luke", I said. "You need to get your fire back".
He smiled and caressed my nose with his. "Maybe you are right Reid", he said and pulled me in for a kiss.
NEXT CHAPTER