had to make a post about this crazy dream i had the other night. it's just too weird to forget. anyway, i dreamed that i was in a PORN. yes, a porn. somehow i had decided that this was my next big career move and it would save me from ever having to work a 9-5 job. so the porn took place in a high school boys locker room. it was a cheerleader and ( Read more... )

i fell asleep while i was trying to read my history book and i dazed in and out of some very weird dreams. i can't even remember them now, but it was just bizarre. i feel super strange and i can't describe it. so strange that i wanna cry or something. this happens from time to time and i don't know what it is. it's like i have some weird fever or ( Read more... )

so, tomorrow is my first day of school since i quit 3 years ago. i'm not really sure how i feel about it. i think i'm less nervous cause abe will be with me. going alone would completely freak me out. i know i'll have to do that eventually. this is a good start though. i have thursdays and fridays off which is really really nice. i'm sure those ( Read more... )

i hate that it's so hard for me to get rid of things. i think everything would smooth out if i could just get organized and not be afraid to dump shit. fucking emotional attachments, god.

damn, i've had a livejournal for a long fuckin time.

i was reading some old entries and they are very similar to what i have been writing about lately. guess i've always felt that way.

i can't take living in this tiny apartment anymore. i have so many things in my room and it's ruining the design style of simplicity that i would like to follow. there is no storage space anywhere so i'm not really sure what to do. i have tons and tons of shit that i do not want to get rid of for emotional reasons, and also because i like all that ( Read more... )

why do i get so nervous and so stressed out even before i've begun to do anything? i finally decided to make some changes in my life but they won't be taking place for a while. i feel like i have this huge load of shit to take care of when really it's not that much. everyone goes to school and works, or just works, so why do i have to get so ( Read more... )

why do britney spears tickets have to be so damn expensive! even the nosebleed seats are ridiculous!

poor people wanna see britney too, god!

barbie has really gone downhill since i was a child. i was in target the other day and there were about five different barbies to choose from. i remember being little and there was a selection of 40 or so barbies. she was an astronaut, doctor, teacher, gymnast, chef and every other job you can think of. shes nothing now. they had one barbie in a ( Read more... )

i just watched the most beautiful movie, life as a house. if you haven't seen it, see it. especially if you need a good cry. i've been doing so for the past hour and it feels really really good.