I’m sorry that I cannot directly tell you all that bugs me for the past few weeks. As far as I remember, I’d always got the balls to confront people whenever I feel the urgency to do so but you snatched them away. I’d been keeping my mouth shut instead of laying my cards on the table. I’m tired of trying to defend my reasons from yours because you ( Read more... )

12.14
I wonder why all of a sudden, your face doesn't appear as vivid as it was a week ago. The outlines are blurred, the colors are smudged. I used to remember every detail of it, memorized them during the times when only thin air was the defining factor that we weren't one.. the curves, the scars, the texture of your sun-kissed skin. But now, what ( Read more... )

The Talk finally happened. I was right. I simply can't be someone's first choice. That I've already accepted long ago. I just have to think less and less of myself to digest that truth and it wouldn't be that hard ( Read more... )

"I like you but I don't think I'd be good for you." -CC ( Read more... )

Today, I woke up feeling great and productive. The plan was to clean out my closet and do school-related tasks like reading and watching a movie for class. It was all good. I've already started with the first plan ( Read more... )

My eyes are already half-closed, tired from all the spasmodic crying I've done today but my brain won't let me rest. I wanna stop thinking but all I can do is get my phone and browse my inbox, distracting myself with a relatively lighter problem in the process ( Read more... )

The weight of my world is inside me and it's kinda heavy. But I'd rather fall alone than burden the people I love and those who care about me. Yes, I've been dealing with all the serious stuff by myself my whole life while maintaining the world around me colorful and happy because it's my only escape. Compartmentalized - that's the best word to ( Read more... )

I miss you so bad. I want to see your face and hold your hand but all I can do is revisit my last memory of us together.

You, holding my hand as we walked in a sea of strangers and as we carved the roads to your place.
I, waking up at the sight of you watching me sleep.
A goodbye kiss as I rode the cab.
The sweetest good night message from you to cap ( Read more... )

The pains of keeping things to yourself no matter how much you want to share it with your friends but you can't because they don't wanna listen. And you just have to live with the fact that you have to handle everything on your own.

-I'm experiencing it right now.

Hi! I miss you more than anyone and anything else. More than him. More than skating. And I bet you have no idea that it's you that I am talking about which is actually a good thing because I don't want to complicate things between us. I don't have the guts to do so ( Read more... )