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"I like you but I don't think I'd be good for you." -CC
This keeps on echoing inside my head. Typical line, I know. And I can list down a number of reasons why this story isn't gonna end happily for the the nth time but I wanna hear it straight from him. But we haven't seen each other yet. We haven't talked yet. And I'm kind of scared of the idea of confronting him because it's been a while since I last did it. But it has to happen because we need closure. I need closure in order to move on.
I had been cautious after my last relationship because it shattered me. I'd been involved with some guys but detached myself from the very notion of feelings. I was scarred until he came. And he was just too adorable and lovely that I totally let my guards down and took the risk. It was great. But only while it lasts.
The conflicts were well laid down on the table but I was too happy to pay attention. Until I noticed that things were changing. No more sweet messages, no holding hands, no phone calls. All of a sudden, I felt like a stranger and I was torn between silence and protests. I tried to let him be and just understand, like I normally do, but the growing gap was killing me. And no matter how hard I tried to make sense of the situation, I just couldn't. It was so drastic that it made me helpless and clueless.
I can never blame him. I'm at fault too. I knew how things are and I knew better. "Been there, done that." So I should have seen this coming. But I love the idea of "us" that's why I hoped that this would be something different. Sadly, "us" still remains an idea. And I guess, it will forever be that way.
This keeps on echoing inside my head. Typical line, I know. And I can list down a number of reasons why this story isn't gonna end happily for the the nth time but I wanna hear it straight from him. But we haven't seen each other yet. We haven't talked yet. And I'm kind of scared of the idea of confronting him because it's been a while since I last did it. But it has to happen because we need closure. I need closure in order to move on.
I had been cautious after my last relationship because it shattered me. I'd been involved with some guys but detached myself from the very notion of feelings. I was scarred until he came. And he was just too adorable and lovely that I totally let my guards down and took the risk. It was great. But only while it lasts.
The conflicts were well laid down on the table but I was too happy to pay attention. Until I noticed that things were changing. No more sweet messages, no holding hands, no phone calls. All of a sudden, I felt like a stranger and I was torn between silence and protests. I tried to let him be and just understand, like I normally do, but the growing gap was killing me. And no matter how hard I tried to make sense of the situation, I just couldn't. It was so drastic that it made me helpless and clueless.
I can never blame him. I'm at fault too. I knew how things are and I knew better. "Been there, done that." So I should have seen this coming. But I love the idea of "us" that's why I hoped that this would be something different. Sadly, "us" still remains an idea. And I guess, it will forever be that way.