i don't know what it means either. but you could just let me do it. instead all you do is hold me back and make me cling to your sameold sameold principles that i have never cherished. you don't know any better, neither do i. but i have an idea of what could be, and while you just flat out deny that there might be any other possibility, i have the ( Read more... )

some days i worry that any decision i make will be my last.

i could never wear green and pull it off. red doesn't suit me, blue makes me look like a teaching assistant. brown is lethal. i am too pale in white or yellow. i wear so much black, no one notices when i'm in mourning ( Read more... )

this is not it.

after ten hours at the office, i said goodbye to everyone today to go on vacation over the weekend.
i wish it could have been more final. i don't think i want to ever go back.

i still don't know where to go. i left a decade ago to be somewhere else and someone else.  in fact i wanted to make sure there is something else.  there is, that i can be sure of now. but still, vital things are missing. things i cannot find by leaving, only by staying somewhere.

now, a decade later, i have made new friends, i have grown, i have ( Read more... )

just being is never enough, but making an impact is close to impossible when you're not part of the winning crowd ( Read more... )