leave a mark
just being is never enough, but making an impact is close to impossible when you're not part of the winning crowd.
the knowledge that nothing can come of the current situation you're in is nauseating, the urge to change everything - from the shoes you wear to your haircut, from the music you listen to to the people you surround yourself with - becomes stronger every day. and you cannot even say why.
you'll find that there are indeed people who are already living the life you desire so much, although they might do so unintentionally. and when you finally take a closer look you will find that everything you see in them is also present in yourself, as they just as human as you are. and what you desire is nonexistent, your own imagination turned them into someone they're not.
now that you know that they are just as ugly and full of flaws and imperfections as you are, you should take a look at yourself and take pride in being what you are. but you don't. because nothing has changed. and you know that if they are just like you, nothing could ever change. and you won't get out of here. and you won't leave a mark, because that is up to pure luck. and luck is something you cannot rely on.
the knowledge that nothing can come of the current situation you're in is nauseating, the urge to change everything - from the shoes you wear to your haircut, from the music you listen to to the people you surround yourself with - becomes stronger every day. and you cannot even say why.
you'll find that there are indeed people who are already living the life you desire so much, although they might do so unintentionally. and when you finally take a closer look you will find that everything you see in them is also present in yourself, as they just as human as you are. and what you desire is nonexistent, your own imagination turned them into someone they're not.
now that you know that they are just as ugly and full of flaws and imperfections as you are, you should take a look at yourself and take pride in being what you are. but you don't. because nothing has changed. and you know that if they are just like you, nothing could ever change. and you won't get out of here. and you won't leave a mark, because that is up to pure luck. and luck is something you cannot rely on.