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I'm not taking my meds again, I say. You frown, sigh, and start in the routine set of questions. Why haven't you been taking them? When did you last take them? Do you want to be taking them? What is keeping you from taking them? I see the checklist behind your eyes as your brain yawns. Every client you've seen today has this issue. Why don't ( Read more... ) -
Treatment Plan
I'm really frustrated right now. Tomorrow in my session with my ARMHS worker we are going to be going over my old treatment plan and creating a new one based on their new paperwork style. I've been trying to think ahead about what kinds of things I want on my treatment plan because I know that Shawna is going to ask me about that tomorrow, ( Read more... ) -
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It's a shame that I'm such a good morning person, because it seems these days that the moon brings out the best of me ( Read more... ) -
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Today I'll have been in the program for a year. And I'm goddamn excited about that fact. As Jess put it yesterday, I set out to do something, and I did it! That's a big deal! And you know what Bob? If I want to say that I'm recovering, I can say that. AA hasn't coined that or copyrighted that saying! The Mental Health world says it too. And we make ( Read more... ) -
Leaving the StepUP community
Addiction is when drugs become a part of your daily life. In psychology, its known to become one of your basic human drives- on the same level as sex, food, and water. But are all degrees of drug use supposedly addiction? I used drugs with Yuliya, Whitney, and Kevin. Once, I got drunk with my cousin for her birthday. She thought it was hilarious ( Read more... ) -
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I'm terrified of becoming that crazy girlfriend. When I was dating Jon Megan, it was something that deeply impaired our relationship. He was crazy or unstable and was consistently being placed in crisis overnight programs or whatnot. He'd call me from Nancy Page telling me what fucked up situation he had gotten himself into this last time. I hated ( Read more... ) -
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I was going to write about how angry I am at a few select people and the world in general but I decided that I've ranted enough for one or really for a lifetime and I need to move on to something else ( Read more... ) -
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"Do you have 50 cents to spare? I'm trying to get into Catholic Charities so that I have a bed tonight and some food to eat..."
"I know, I've been there." I responded to the late-middle aged man holding out his hand with a handful of pennies. "I'm sorry, all I have is my bus card." I wasn't lying either. I'd just spent my last dollar ( Read more... ) -
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I wonder how many times a day I look i n the mirror and don't see anything ( Read more... )