so there's this boy. and he's wonderful. and i'm pretty sure i'm in love with him.

just thought you should know.

and as i sit here sick, i'm content. because i love sarah, especially when she eats chicken with me in bed. and theres this boy..hes wonderful. and (almost) everyone else is pretty much fucked up. and i don't seem to mind. because i stopped caring by now.

this is me screaming for anything, anyone at all. this is my way of pushing the world away. this is me wanting everything i can never have. this is me pretending that i don't care. this is my way of faking life. this is the way i cry myself to sleep, and the nights that i can't even force myself to cry. this is my internal anger and need for ( Read more... )

i wish i could go on to say how amazing my summer was. or that i fell in love, or met someone amazing for that matter ( Read more... )

PE-Kram/Creative Writing ( Read more... )

it's 1:30 in the afternoon and i'm exhausted. physically and emotionally. the past week has not gone as planned--at all. i've had intentions of spending some much needed time with stevo, only i haven't even talked to him since saturday night when he yelled at me. so i'm pretty sure he hates me. and for some odd reason, i still want him. so i ( Read more... )

dear self ( Read more... )

dear self:

you suck.  end of story.

love,

stephanie.

i've quit wearing mascara. it only clumps together in the heat. i'd rather strut around in my underwear and a cami than anything else. i've given a new meaning to over abusing the privilege of comfy shorts and crappy tee-shirts. i feel alone, even though everyone around me seems to love me. only the one i really want to care pretends he doesnt ( Read more... )

So I realized I haven't updated in about 10 years...or 3 weeks, but still, it seems like forever.

Basically, everything beens pretty boring because everyone decided to leave for vacation...but does Stephanie get to go anywhere? No, of course not.   because I suck.  The past week has basically consisted of seeing the lovely boyfriend on a few times ( Read more... )