[翻訳] アヲイ - abelcain
So, another request of Awoi by abeltocain, as well as a personal interest of mine.
And heck, [trying to hold back in my ways of expression myself right now] I fell in love with the lyrics. Like, seriously. So much about Otogi's lyrics being all understandable and without a lot of chifres, haha. abelcain is quite littered with cryptic images and expressions that are shot at you with very little/unclear context, it's like ambrosia to my soul, hah.
So I guess I don't need to mention that now, after trying to translate it, my head is practically smoking. However, I really quite love the song. Madly, maybe [Might add a link to the PV as well]. I'll try my best to explain what I think he might be saying, while interpreting as little as possible.
I got the kanji-lyrics from the single's booklet, however they were so tiny, I ended up comparing them with a version abeltocain found online, and the song itself. Romaji and translation are, as ever, by me.
Notes are at the end of the post, and English parts are in italics in the translation.
I will revise the entry if needed, once I get bigger scans of the booklet.
Don't repost without linking back to this post, and please drop me a message if you do, thanks ♪
abelcain
悲しい結末は予定調和の中へ流れ。
廃れた愛情は深い歪みの底へ堕ちて。
自愛への執着は終わり無き自虐の果てに傷。
あの人の裏切りがナイフに変わり何かを切り裂いた。
(1)
心臓泣いてabelcain, sad liar cry.
抱いて消える余韻 far away.
「love me like like an end」と消えて,愛を繋いで,嘘にならない程に。
手を伸ばして,途切れて,また傷になって涙,ガラス越し。
終わりを飾る悲しみは輪舞曲。
slowly…
一切の感情を無視され続けた結果がこれならば,生涯煉獄の闇の中。
あの日あの場所で不意に幻に消えた幸福に縋りついて生きよう。
そして自愛と自虐の輪廻,確かな愛など求めはしない。
心臓泣いてabelcain, sad liar cry.
抱いて消える余韻 far away.
「love me like like an end」と消えて,愛を繋いで,嘘にならない程に。
アナタに抱かれて,おかしくなって動けない世界で。
掻き乱して,揺らして,愛は置き去りになって。
手を伸ばして,途切れて,また傷になって涙,ガラス越し。
愛はガラス越し。
終わりを知らぬ悲しみの輪舞曲。
slowly…
abelcain
kanashii ketsumatsu wa yotei chouwa no naka he nagare.
sutareta aijou wa fukai hizumi no soko he ochite.
jiai he no shuuchaku wa owarinaki jigyaku no hate ni kizu.
ano hito no uragiri ga NAIFU ni kawari nanika wo kirisaita.
(1)
shinzou naite abelcain, sad liar cry.
daite kieru yoin far away.
「love me like an end」to kiete, ai wo tsunaide, uso ni naranai hodo ni.
te wo nobashite, togirete, mata kizu ni natte namida, GARASU goshi.
owari wo kazaru kanashimi wa rinbukyoku. (2)
slowly…
issai no kanjou wo mushisare tsudsuketa kekka ga kore naraba, shougai rengoku no yami no naka.
ano hi ano basho de fui ni maboroshi ni kieta koufuku ni sugaritsuite ikiyou.
soshite jiai to jigyaku no rinne, tashika na ai nado motome wa shinai.
shinzou naite abelcain, sad liar cry.
daite kieru yoin far away.
「love me like an end」to kiete, ai wo tsunaide, uso ni naranai hodo ni.
ANATA ni dakarete, okashiku natte ugokenai sekai de.
kakimidashite, yurashite, ai wa okizari ni natte.
te wo nobashite, togirete, mata kizu ni natte namida, GARASU goshi.
ai wa GARASU goshi.
owari wo shiranu kanashimi no rinbukyoku. (see 2)
slowly…
abelcain [0]
A sad conclusion streams towards and into pre-established harmony. [1]
Died out affection drops to the bottom of deep distortion.
The adhesion towards self-love is the wound at the extremity of endless masochism. [2]
That person's betrayal cut up something in place of the knife.
(see 1) / [3]
My heart cries abelcain, sad liar cry.
Hold me, disappearing reverberation far away. [4]
Saying "love me like an end", you vanish, fasten the love, to the extent that it will not become a lie.
I stretch out my hands, pause, again it became a wound, therefor tears, beyond the glass. [5]
The sadness that adorns the end is a rondo.
slowly…
If this is the result of the sentiments having continued to being ignored, inside of the darkness of my lifetime's purgatory. [6]
I shall live clinging to the happiness that suddenly disappeared in an illusion that day, that place. [7]
And the samsara of self-love and masochism, it does not demand things like definite love.
My heart cries abelcain, sad liar cry.
Hold me, disappearing reverberation far away. [see 4]
Saying "love me like an end", you vanish, fasten the love, to the extent that it will not become a lie.
Embraced by you, it became strange, in this world that cannot move. [8]
Stir me up, rock me, love is left behind. [9]
I stretch out my hands, pause, again it became a wound, therefor tears, beyond the glass.
Love is beyond the glass.
The rondo of sadness that does not know an end.
slowly…
notes
[0] The song is likely to be written in the POV of a woman. I say 'likely', because there is only one hint it might, that being 'anata', which is more commonly used by women than by men.
[1] Pre-established harmony → wikipedia.
[2] Just to clarify, I understand jigyaky as self-masochism, being masochistic in the way that you are a sadist to yourself.
[3] The part he changed in the third line, in case I got it right, then it means "The adhesion towards self-love is the scattering at the extremity of submission."
[4] Apart from reverberation, yoin can mean a lot, like suggestiveness, aftertaste, lingering memory.... Choose for yourself. Also, although "hold me" sounds quite tame, daite actually can be understood quite forthrightly as "have sex with me".
[5] About these two lines - their kinds of sentence patterns reoccur a couple of times in the song. They could be interpreted quite differently, either as a chain of events, or as imperatives, or both. So it could be "Stretch out your hands, pause..." just as well.
[6] The last part is probably "then I am inside…" but he omits the noun.
[7] He doesn't say explicitly say "I", so it could be 'let us live' as well.
[8] Cannot move, or maybe work as in "function".
[9] Sexual images. Also, just like in [5] depending on how you'd interpret it, it could also be stirring it up, rocking/shaking it…
(1) The first part is being repeated, however, Otogi sings something different for the third line. I tried to understand what it might be, and came up with something that might or might not be it. What I hear instead of owarinaki jigyaku no hate ni kizu, is something like owarinaki kifuku no hate ni kifu. Absolutely no guaranty. See [3] for the translation.
(2) He sings rondo instead of the Japanese rinbukyoku. It's the English equivalent.
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My adoration for lyricists automatically skyrockets when they make me think it necessary to write more than five notes for a song, haha. Well Otogi, well done.
I can't guarantee for that my translation is right (when can I ever), but I sure hope it's not totally wrong. I just translated it, so I might happen I revise it at a later point of time.
If you have any comments of objections, feel free to share them.
For more, feel free to check out my lyrics translation archive → here ←
.
And heck, [trying to hold back in my ways of expression myself right now] I fell in love with the lyrics. Like, seriously. So much about Otogi's lyrics being all understandable and without a lot of chifres, haha. abelcain is quite littered with cryptic images and expressions that are shot at you with very little/unclear context, it's like ambrosia to my soul, hah.
So I guess I don't need to mention that now, after trying to translate it, my head is practically smoking. However, I really quite love the song. Madly, maybe [Might add a link to the PV as well]. I'll try my best to explain what I think he might be saying, while interpreting as little as possible.
I got the kanji-lyrics from the single's booklet, however they were so tiny, I ended up comparing them with a version abeltocain found online, and the song itself. Romaji and translation are, as ever, by me.
Notes are at the end of the post, and English parts are in italics in the translation.
I will revise the entry if needed, once I get bigger scans of the booklet.
Don't repost without linking back to this post, and please drop me a message if you do, thanks ♪
abelcain
悲しい結末は予定調和の中へ流れ。
廃れた愛情は深い歪みの底へ堕ちて。
自愛への執着は終わり無き自虐の果てに傷。
あの人の裏切りがナイフに変わり何かを切り裂いた。
(1)
心臓泣いてabelcain, sad liar cry.
抱いて消える余韻 far away.
「love me like like an end」と消えて,愛を繋いで,嘘にならない程に。
手を伸ばして,途切れて,また傷になって涙,ガラス越し。
終わりを飾る悲しみは輪舞曲。
slowly…
一切の感情を無視され続けた結果がこれならば,生涯煉獄の闇の中。
あの日あの場所で不意に幻に消えた幸福に縋りついて生きよう。
そして自愛と自虐の輪廻,確かな愛など求めはしない。
心臓泣いてabelcain, sad liar cry.
抱いて消える余韻 far away.
「love me like like an end」と消えて,愛を繋いで,嘘にならない程に。
アナタに抱かれて,おかしくなって動けない世界で。
掻き乱して,揺らして,愛は置き去りになって。
手を伸ばして,途切れて,また傷になって涙,ガラス越し。
愛はガラス越し。
終わりを知らぬ悲しみの輪舞曲。
slowly…
abelcain
kanashii ketsumatsu wa yotei chouwa no naka he nagare.
sutareta aijou wa fukai hizumi no soko he ochite.
jiai he no shuuchaku wa owarinaki jigyaku no hate ni kizu.
ano hito no uragiri ga NAIFU ni kawari nanika wo kirisaita.
(1)
shinzou naite abelcain, sad liar cry.
daite kieru yoin far away.
「love me like an end」to kiete, ai wo tsunaide, uso ni naranai hodo ni.
te wo nobashite, togirete, mata kizu ni natte namida, GARASU goshi.
owari wo kazaru kanashimi wa rinbukyoku. (2)
slowly…
issai no kanjou wo mushisare tsudsuketa kekka ga kore naraba, shougai rengoku no yami no naka.
ano hi ano basho de fui ni maboroshi ni kieta koufuku ni sugaritsuite ikiyou.
soshite jiai to jigyaku no rinne, tashika na ai nado motome wa shinai.
shinzou naite abelcain, sad liar cry.
daite kieru yoin far away.
「love me like an end」to kiete, ai wo tsunaide, uso ni naranai hodo ni.
ANATA ni dakarete, okashiku natte ugokenai sekai de.
kakimidashite, yurashite, ai wa okizari ni natte.
te wo nobashite, togirete, mata kizu ni natte namida, GARASU goshi.
ai wa GARASU goshi.
owari wo shiranu kanashimi no rinbukyoku. (see 2)
slowly…
abelcain [0]
A sad conclusion streams towards and into pre-established harmony. [1]
Died out affection drops to the bottom of deep distortion.
The adhesion towards self-love is the wound at the extremity of endless masochism. [2]
That person's betrayal cut up something in place of the knife.
(see 1) / [3]
My heart cries abelcain, sad liar cry.
Hold me, disappearing reverberation far away. [4]
Saying "love me like an end", you vanish, fasten the love, to the extent that it will not become a lie.
I stretch out my hands, pause, again it became a wound, therefor tears, beyond the glass. [5]
The sadness that adorns the end is a rondo.
slowly…
If this is the result of the sentiments having continued to being ignored, inside of the darkness of my lifetime's purgatory. [6]
I shall live clinging to the happiness that suddenly disappeared in an illusion that day, that place. [7]
And the samsara of self-love and masochism, it does not demand things like definite love.
My heart cries abelcain, sad liar cry.
Hold me, disappearing reverberation far away. [see 4]
Saying "love me like an end", you vanish, fasten the love, to the extent that it will not become a lie.
Embraced by you, it became strange, in this world that cannot move. [8]
Stir me up, rock me, love is left behind. [9]
I stretch out my hands, pause, again it became a wound, therefor tears, beyond the glass.
Love is beyond the glass.
The rondo of sadness that does not know an end.
slowly…
notes
[0] The song is likely to be written in the POV of a woman. I say 'likely', because there is only one hint it might, that being 'anata', which is more commonly used by women than by men.
[1] Pre-established harmony → wikipedia.
[2] Just to clarify, I understand jigyaky as self-masochism, being masochistic in the way that you are a sadist to yourself.
[3] The part he changed in the third line, in case I got it right, then it means "The adhesion towards self-love is the scattering at the extremity of submission."
[4] Apart from reverberation, yoin can mean a lot, like suggestiveness, aftertaste, lingering memory.... Choose for yourself. Also, although "hold me" sounds quite tame, daite actually can be understood quite forthrightly as "have sex with me".
[5] About these two lines - their kinds of sentence patterns reoccur a couple of times in the song. They could be interpreted quite differently, either as a chain of events, or as imperatives, or both. So it could be "Stretch out your hands, pause..." just as well.
[6] The last part is probably "then I am inside…" but he omits the noun.
[7] He doesn't say explicitly say "I", so it could be 'let us live' as well.
[8] Cannot move, or maybe work as in "function".
[9] Sexual images. Also, just like in [5] depending on how you'd interpret it, it could also be stirring it up, rocking/shaking it…
(1) The first part is being repeated, however, Otogi sings something different for the third line. I tried to understand what it might be, and came up with something that might or might not be it. What I hear instead of owarinaki jigyaku no hate ni kizu, is something like owarinaki kifuku no hate ni kifu. Absolutely no guaranty. See [3] for the translation.
(2) He sings rondo instead of the Japanese rinbukyoku. It's the English equivalent.
━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─━─
My adoration for lyricists automatically skyrockets when they make me think it necessary to write more than five notes for a song, haha. Well Otogi, well done.
I can't guarantee for that my translation is right (when can I ever), but I sure hope it's not totally wrong. I just translated it, so I might happen I revise it at a later point of time.
If you have any comments of objections, feel free to share them.
For more, feel free to check out my lyrics translation archive → here ←
.