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we just bought a couch.

that is all.

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so i looked back and it's true, i never post new year's resolutions, if i even make them. last year i had goals rather than resolutions, and mainly only because of desperation. but i did it, i got a real job and apartment. i've done lots of other things i wouldn't have expected and/or am pleased with, but those were the two things driving me at the ( Read more... )

so. i am sick. (i never get sick). i have a cold that just keeps morphing into more evil symptoms and yesterday somehow i got pinkeye. there's not even some amusing rock n roll story to go with it. i don't even know anyone with pinkeye. but i washed my eyes with a bit of lemon juice last night and so today they had already cleared up significantly ( Read more... )

i was feeling absent. i am actually keeping very busy. not super productive. had an idea that is brilliant and i will certainly not follow through on. with just a bit of follow-through i could feel quite accomplished. instead i focus on getting from one day to the next without being ostracized or left behind. we shall see. i need an additional ( Read more... )

i have no idea what day it is. i should finish a paper but i think sleeping earlier would actually be more productive. sometime in the last two days i wrote "say yes." on my wrist. but i don't remember doing it. just a little weird. i have no self-perception anymore. that freaks me out a lot. i just woke up from a fitful dream that involved a ( Read more... )

soo ( Read more... )

i'm a chameleon
a let's-just-get-through-this-er
willing to not be real to you
to be caricature
just to make things easy.
and i love a connect.
god i love a connect.
but how do i expect to find
that real deep down-ness
when to everyone i'm just
a shadow of themselves?

ten good things ( Read more... )