Today I came home and watched my little sister play with her friends for about 10 minutes, i was just sitting there in the car mesmerized, i was so jealous and i just wanted to leave my body and enter hers or something of that sort, then i went in and i fell asleep and then i woke up and came on the computer, i havent taken a nap in the middle of ( Read more... )

wow do i feel like shit, first the whole betrayl with jill and the feeling completely dirty and disgusted with my self anf the fact that i lack a brain and the feeling as if i cant even look into the mirror and now gabby the person that i completely care about more then anything thinks that i dont and that i hung up on her when my stupid phone died ( Read more... )

me and agbby got our ears stretched yesterday at st marks, i hurt soo much, probably cause i went from a 14 to a 6 but eh details, and i bought a tunnel cuz the guy saidthat tunnels are easier to get infected so like after a week i can change it so thats my happy news, i feel like scum, thas my sad news, this weekend seemed to hve sucked for ( Read more... )

yuck i dont wanna go tommorrow, jills sweet16 that is, i hate getting dressed up i ate dresses an i hate shoes, i wish i could just wear my cons with the dress, they match and they look alright and ill be confortable as opposed to dieing, but no im one of her best friends so i cant do that, no u have to go even if u dread it and dont want to at all ( Read more... )

Ive been thinking alot lately, thinking and talking to john, seems like thats all i do, it helps, but then again it brings out alot of things that i like to keep bottled up inside surpressed and invisible to the outside spectators, im not feeling too hott and i cant stand people that pretend to care and bother me and act like i must tell them my ( Read more... )

i went to dfp yest and it was soo much fun i met gabby's friend sasha and sam and gabby were there and stefan was there too withhis bro and he was being nice and it was wierd cuz hes rarely ever nice and me and gabby won yoohoo shirts hehehe and i got lots of pins and some lady accused me of stealing her rings when i was just trying them on but she ( Read more... )

wow i feel really bad this morning i made my lil sister gwen stephani it was soo cute she came into my room last night and asked for my assistance it made me happy cuz lately ive been feelin as if i havent been there for the little creatures that live in my house and that i call sisters oh and yest i enrolled my other lil sister in karate class, ( Read more... )

today.....lets see got up with much extrenuating (spelling?) effort and slept on the bus as usual, this is soo sad im not gonna be on the bus next year wityh my new job and all this is quite depressing tear tear tear acctually its really not and im exaggerating as usual, i should stop, ai someone who annoys me wants me to come to her aweet 16 in ( Read more... )

wow i feel like such a moron, yesterday after school i came home and i was waiting for the bus and sam appeared out of an oblivion and then the bus went by and i saw malave and all them including diego who just had the wierd urge to have to stare at me and then there was this guy sitting next to them all and he kinda looked like sean, but he lives ( Read more... )

ai john is the best THANK YOU sooo much i didnt realize how much i wanted to hear that from someone ur too much yea well today was soo odd i saw diego cuz i went with malava and stru and that girl with my hair and some other kids to their band practice and i saw diego and yuck he had my shoes!!! the same damn ones that he made fun of i live admist ( Read more... )