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Ive been thinking alot lately, thinking and talking to john, seems like thats all i do, it helps, but then again it brings out alot of things that i like to keep bottled up inside surpressed and invisible to the outside spectators, im not feeling too hott and i cant stand people that pretend to care and bother me and act like i must tell them my problems yet, this has happened in the past and they would just say aww or shucks or something stupid and meaningless along those lines, linger a bit, and then run off and be happy as if i had said nothing, so why waste my time?, how bout we just cut to the you running away and being happy and forgetful and leaving me and my issues be, i guess im finally begining to learn from my mistakes, again with the thinking and analyzing, i guess facing my problems is the only way to make them go away, but its easier to just shove them down deep and let them conjure up inside while i put on my fake facade for the world once again