im dead right now. dead tired. today was the first time i went to the YMCA in a looong time. whew! that wore me out. then i vaccuumed my car and i found cool stuff under my drivers seat that i thought i lost forever. like missing chapstick, a nose ring, a glow in the dark lobster. haha. i then cleaned out my wholllleeeee car. its beautiful now. ( Read more... )

ok ok, so yeah i do overworry and shit. so i did an experiment yesterday. i did not call ed or go online, at all. today i went to work and didnt call him when i got done either. butttt guess what??? he called me today. so for one day and one day only we did not speak through any form of communication. i was curious to see what would happen if i ( Read more... )

i didnt get to finish my last entry cuz i got kicked offline. anyway..that song makes me think of him because hes choosing school over me and work, which will pay off for his future career as a pharmacist ( Read more... )

this past week I have been very, very happy with how things are working out for me...school wise, and money aint so bad either. I got a job at state college thats on campus and got good hours after class, ill prob get a work study job in the student athlete gym, theres a 24hr gym where ill be living so i can work out, i got paid this week and i ( Read more... )

im at the point in my life now where im experiencing many firsts. but this is a first that i didnt want to have happen so soon. today i found out that one of my online friends died on friday. im pretty upset by this even though i never met him in person. for a few months now i have been talking online to this guy Dave who is from Scranton and his ( Read more... )

so i didnt see Ed last night cuz i had to get upa t 5am today..so thats ok. but i didnt see him tonight either. last night he was supposed to hang out with joe and kate and joe never showed. so it wasjust him and kate. ooo did this make me jealous. ugh i over react all the time. i need to stop this. i should probably end this update right now cuz i ( Read more... )

all these jealous, stupid thoughts keep popping into my head. i should be beaming with happiness, but im not. i seem to make everything depressing and look too far into things than necessary. i just realized the other night that Ed has a stuffed animal with a heart on its lip (ive seen this animal before, but didnt notice that) and then i asked him ( Read more... )

i never thought i got any symptoms from my period before, but now im realizing that i do. it makes me an overly emotion pain. last night w/ed i feel like i was very rude to him and mean. ugh. he kept stuff from his exes and that majorly pissed me offlast night even though ive seen the stuff before. but last night i realized he had a stuffed animal ( Read more... )

well i was going to write about working at montage last night but janine beat me to it. damn you, janine. nah, its all good. so read hers about it lol. today at work was pretty busy (ehrhardts) im sooo glad i didnt work there last night or tonight, they were SLAMMED. but i am working there tomorrow for 9 freakin hours. im really racking up the ( Read more... )

well lets see. im not online as much as i used to be. sorry everyone, i know you're sad w/o me. on tuesday me and ed became official. so for anniversary sake i dont know what date to use...should i say its june 28th...or june 2nd..the day we met. cuz ever since we met we were kinda "together" hmm, i guess it doesnt really matter too much. it wasnt ( Read more... )