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Things Come Together
I started this online journal (or rather its earliest iteration as a Blurty) shortly after my grandfather passed away in early 2003. I felt like I had a lot to say about a lot of feelings that I didn't entirely understand. I used the journal as an outlet for my thoughts, with no real attention paid to detail, grammar, punctuation, or the like. Just ( Read more... ) -
Pop
This guy has beef. With "they", the "bubble people" he calls them.
In his rant linked to above he goes on to describe the people who block shopping aisles without a care for the people they inconvenience, the people at movies who talk without thinking about the people they're interrupting, etc. Commenters to his post recant stories of "bubble ( Read more... ) -
Rage
My house was robbed today. Got a call at work from my father just telling me I had to get home as fast as I could. I get there and there's police everywhere, neighbors gawking, dogs barking, lights flashing, and my head started to throb violently ( Read more... ) -
Night Thoughts, Part Two
I'm waiting.
There are big things planned, big things indeed. But not right now, so I'm waiting. I feel like I've been waiting for many years now.
One of those big things is graduation, which is taking place in early August for me. I just shot four years into the basketball net of life from the free throw line for a point that didn't matter because ( Read more... ) -
Night Thoughts, Part One
As my good buddy Kens would say, "You can't please everyone."
Right now I would settle for pleasing myself. Pleasure is something I've been thinking about a lot. And pain I guess, but not as much as pleasure. I've often found myself wondering how a person goes about finding pleasure, is it something that's immediate? Is it learned? If pleasure is ( Read more... ) -
Passing Me By
I think there just has to be a point in someone's life when they own up to their nature and either accept it or deny it, only to have it spring up in unwanted places in their life. Crazy enough, for all the talk I've talked in the past about bullshit things like "knowledge of self" or "the value of self-worth", I think I finally understand why ( Read more... ) -
Particle Man Part Deux
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Things Fall Apart
Tough times. Tough times.
I've been so off lately, so off. I don't remember whole parts of my day and I forget where I am sometimes. I have this here job and every morning I wake up at 8 AM and make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and watch television while Spike sits eagerly at my feet and begs for scraps. Sometimes I give it to him. Sometimes I ( Read more... ) -
Black Room
I believe I'm damaged.
I believe I'm wrong.
I believe...my time ain't long.
I've been standing in this dark and empty place for so long now. It is cold and wet, I can feel something dripping somewhere and I realize I'm completely alone here.
And that's just fine with me.
It's just me and my thoughts, me and my faults, and there's no one around to catch ( Read more... )