I never post on this thing... but now i want to tell everyone, post everywhere, scream at the top of my lungs: I FOUND WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY! I FOUND MY CALLING IN THIS LIFE!
I haven't felt this strong and driven in a million years - and now there's no stopping me!!

some men are sooo stupid. im so amused so so amused - SO amused i even decided to share it with LJ and I hardly ever write anything in here. he was one of the most intelligent people i thought i knew - i could never imagine he'd make such a great TOY :) aaaaaahhhh so so stupid. i love this game. I LURRRRRRRRVVVVVVVVVVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

january, february, march... it goes from bad to worse and now my hopes of spring bringing some changes into my life are shattered as well. a lot of people i believed in have let me down in these last few months but after what he said last night came the biggest disappointment of them all. you guess why those not so close to you suddenly turn their ( Read more... )

S prazdnikom!!!

Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. This whole week has been a blow and all the feelings that have been bubbling underneath for a while now, have finally spilled out. How much disappointment I can take, I don't know, but I don't feel very well already. Not only is he confusing, he is also a bad liar. Skillfully destroys people' ( Read more... )

Polina, do you know how I can contact Bunts?
thanks

she left. and i dont know how to deal with it.

I saw him last night from afar. All of a sudden the cold, dark-grey sky illuminated with sparkles. My heart stopped. My heart soared. My heart cried. Any awkward move and everything I built will be destroyed. Yet the time feels right, like never before. I'm scared to touch because it's so fragile. I'm scared to ignore and forget because this ( Read more... )

zaranee izvinyaus za russkiy na latine, no u menya zdes net podxodyashey klaviaturi (obichno ya ne lenyus, chestnoe slovo!). chitayu ya jj i pryam strashno, kak vse chestno, otkrito... - public diary, eh? interesno, konechno, i mne inogda stolko xochetsa skazat... tolko vot kak-to zdes odinoko, v etom jj. Polin, poznakom' menya s drugimi!!

It's official - I'm an insomniac. Celebrated my going to bed at 9pm last night only to face the 'nightmare' of thoughts bugging me for the next 4 hrs! It didn't work. Very close to a nervous breakdown realised something very handy - to feel better all you gotta do is plan or find something interesting in your calendar to look forward and get you ( Read more... )