Comments | ohka15: Pictures: my face over the last 4 years or so

ohka15

Pictures: my face over the last 4 years or so

Dec 31, 2011 19:01

I have not posted many pictures on here (actually I think only one). Mainly because I am embarrassed by my appearance. I decided that I will post some pictures of me across time.

( photos and captions here... )

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ohka15 January 1 2012, 01:12:00 UTC

I do look a little different, but not sure how much more feminine in appearance that I have gotten. I still contend that I did not change too much. Did change some though.

"No we didn't. We thought you looked cute and dykey."

Heh, well. I don't really see how I am perceived as a woman in that photo. I really thought that I looked like a long haired man in a big suit.

ohka15 January 2 2012, 18:32:43 UTC

My negative way of thinking is affecting me too much.

shelleybear January 1 2012, 04:18:53 UTC

I think you are selling yourself short.
But sweetie, that is something you need to realize for yourself.

ohka15 January 1 2012, 04:41:19 UTC

I do concede that I do look different than I do in 2007, but I question how much more feminine I appear. My face may have changed some but the body other than less fat is roughly the same in my opinion.

What do you believe that I am selling myself short in exactly?

shelleybear January 1 2012, 05:16:00 UTC

It took almost five years for me to get the bum and hips you want.
I decided early on not to lose weight, but to give the hormones something to work with.
Now, you DO look more feminine.
TRUST ME!

ohka15 January 1 2012, 05:25:56 UTC

I suppose. I admit that I have grown impatient. I just worry that nothing will be different though in time, but I am trying to do better about not stressing about that since I cannot know what will happen.

I am trying to lose as much as I can at this time. I really am hopeful to burn off as of my stomach fat as possible to flatten it out. Then after I achieve that goal, I probably will allow myself to gain some weight. My hope would be that allowing some weight gain slowly would distribute it to my butt, hips, and/or breasts. I guess there is no way to know for sure, but I guess I need to try to be optimistic about it.

I am glad that you think that I look more feminine. Since I have seen my body everyday of my life, it is hard for me to see it differently. I am trying hard to believe others on this because honestly I cannot see it well lol

hokuton_punch January 1 2012, 06:25:40 UTC

Holy crap, I would NEVER have recognized you in those first pictures! You look so different and lovely now. ♥ I really like that top in the last picture!

ohka15 January 1 2012, 07:53:36 UTC

"Holy crap, I would NEVER have recognized you in those first pictures! You look so different and lovely now. "

Thank you for the kind words. I think "lovely" is way too generous though, heh. I do look a bit different I guess but not as much as some of you seem to think :P

"I really like that top in the last picture!"

I like it too. I bought it at a trading clothing store in the area. If you want, I could get the information on the manufacturer of the tags so you can maybe buy one too if you want to look it up.

hokuton_punch January 1 2012, 20:23:03 UTC

Oh, that'd be quite kind of you! Thanks. ♥

ohka15 January 1 2012, 20:30:29 UTC

Appears the company that made it is called "Fashion * Aid" (don't know if the * is important), style# GT0008

publictrans January 1 2012, 08:28:41 UTC

Yeah so I've apparently never seen a pic of you before this... And I can definitely see change happening in your face in these photos. Body fat/boobs are always a hard thing to tell anyway - so much of how they look (for anyone) is actually about the clothes one wears. And your hair is super nice!

ohka15 January 1 2012, 20:14:23 UTC

Thanks for reading. My face is a bit different. Alot of people do like to say how nice my hair is, but it can be a real pain to manage and try to keep it nice.

"Body fat/boobs are always a hard thing to tell anyway - so much of how they look (for anyone) is actually about the clothes one wears."

Well, but it is pretty easy to tell that I have zero to very little curve to my body. Very Straight. I know there are lots of women out there with bodies like that, but the point is that my body has not changed much at all. I would prefer to wear things that don't mask those things.

lisaquestions January 1 2012, 09:38:10 UTC

I agree with Nicole - you have changed a lot over the years. If you put your 2007 pictures next to your most recent, you have what looks like two different people.

And I think you look great in your later pictures.

ohka15 January 1 2012, 20:18:08 UTC

Well, I do look a bit different. To myself, I don't look too different at all, especially in the body. People that have known me for years believe that I look the same for the most part.

"And I think you look great in your later pictures."

I appreciate the very kind words though. I admit that I can't look at most of my own pictures. I debated if I wanted to post all these pictures because I am embarrassed by many of them

lisaquestions January 3 2012, 01:48:48 UTC

When you see yourself every day or others see you frequently enough, the gradual changes get incorporated into your or their mental image, so the changes are not as visible. Someone who sees you pre-transition and then again after even a year on estrogen will almost certainly see a difference.

Also, estrogen can be slow in particular ways. I had a B cup after two years and a D cup after five. That's a huge difference, but to me the growth felt very slow.

ohka15 January 3 2012, 02:44:23 UTC

"When you see yourself every day or others see you frequently enough, the gradual changes get incorporated into your or their mental image, so the changes are not as visible. Someone who sees you pre-transition and then again after even a year on estrogen will almost certainly see a difference ( ... )