I finally think I'm ready.
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Upon just skimming at some more recent entries-meaning like from January-it seems like either I'm always in live-or-death moments or that I'm over-exaggerating. I guess often it's the latter, but in those moments, it really does feel like it's life-or-death. Again, it feels like one of those moments now. I hope beyond hope I'm wrong, and that I can ( Read more... )

Sorta feels like I'm at a precipice. The other week I felt like I was seriously at my breaking point. I felt very riled up. But even that wasn't enough to motivate me. I'm beginning to think nothing will. I feel trapped. There are just choices with bad options: one is something I don't want but have to choose; however, if not chosen, option two is ( Read more... )

Things feel like they're at their worst. I'm so embarrassed. My embarrassment and fear are driving me insane. I pray for strength in either direction. Truthfully, I just want out at this point. I want no more of this. I'm out of ideas; I'm out of directions.

I wish I could see the future. Not necessarily the future, but just like a crystal ball ( Read more... )

Your song was different this time-much more plaintive and piercing.I wish my song were different. I wish I could find solace or resolution. Instead, I see a void-a vast emptiness in which my future resides. I hate these feelings. They're so… incorrect. Or are they? Maybe they're spot-on, and it's the doubt and hesitation that's false. That's why I ( Read more... )

I was hoping as it got closer, it'd somehow be easier. I was hoping I could commit more easily. I want it so bad, but I just can't bring myself to do what has to be done. I'm too scared. Scared of failing; scared of the unknown. What's funny is that I didn't realize before how much all I've said before this sentence could be about so many things. I ( Read more... )

I hate my procrastination! I hate my apathy! And I hate my laziness! I know, I know. Do something about it, right? Easier said than done. I feel like I've been fighting it my whole life, and I always seem to come out the loser; the procrastination always seems to win. It's just so difficult for me to stay focused sometimes and just do what I need ( Read more... )

Baby, you're sailing (leaving) today.
Baby, you're sailing (going) away.
Sugar, wish I could go too,
But, honey, you know
I'm happy for you.

Wish I-I wish I-I wish I
Wish I was goin' too.

Baby, your ship (train) has come in ( Read more... )

I've been angry inside about things that ya do.
I can't count all the times that I've told ya we're through.
And when go-when you slam the door-I think you know
That you won't be away too long.
You know that I'm not that strong.Just one look and I can hear a bell ring ( Read more... )

Another year you made a promise ( Read more... )