Sucky October & Wishful Thinking
I was hoping as it got closer, it'd somehow be easier. I was hoping I could commit more easily. I want it so bad, but I just can't bring myself to do what has to be done. I'm too scared. Scared of failing; scared of the unknown. What's funny is that I didn't realize before how much all I've said before this sentence could be about so many things. I guess that's a good thing. I want so bad to scream out but I don't want any interference either. God, I hate feeling this way!
October has kinda sucked. Didn't go to any haunted houses/hayrides. Halloween has kinda been a disappointment. Only fun thing I really did in October was go to Busch Gardens, and even that trip sucked.
I can't believe I've been using this journal for over ten years. A whole decade. Will it ever mean anything? Will it just be lost in the Internet woodlands forever?
October has kinda sucked. Didn't go to any haunted houses/hayrides. Halloween has kinda been a disappointment. Only fun thing I really did in October was go to Busch Gardens, and even that trip sucked.
I can't believe I've been using this journal for over ten years. A whole decade. Will it ever mean anything? Will it just be lost in the Internet woodlands forever?