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The world is too much with us
There's so much feeling and sensation. I can't turn it off inside my head, it's like I'm feeling everything. I'm unbearably happy and desperately woeful. I'm pining and longing for the same thing I have my whole life - something. I don't know what it is. An off switch, maybe. It's a torrent, a deluge and it doesn't stop ( Read more... ) -
Hail, New Year!
I love the energy surrounding the New Year, all of that seething, unformed potential. It thrills me.
Since I only hit one of my goals from 2013, I decided to try adding a few more for 2014. Some of them are probably unattainable, but at least I'll try.
1) Make all handmade gifts.
2) Create a work log with situations and resolutions. Complete 3 per ( Read more... ) -
Long distance
So this is how it happened: I got a call on Monday, July 22nd. I got my dream job! I'm thrilled and ecstatic. About an hour later, as I'm driving to the airport to pick David up from an interview, I get a text. He says: they offered me the job already, while I was still flying home ( Read more... ) -
Waiting
By the end of this week (the day after tomorrow), I should know if I'm going to be hired for this AMAZING job I really want. I don't want to get into too much detail (I've hoped so many times), but it's at a local nonprofit with amazing bosses/co-workers, the mission is something I believe in 100%, and the pay is pretty decent for an entry-level ( Read more... ) -
Is this courage? I'm not sure.
"It's stunning to know I've survived
But I'm not sure what I'm fighting for anymore
And when I break another string
And continue to sing
Is that courage? I'm not sure."That's a suitable recap of the past year ( Read more... ) -
Life as I know it in 2013
Last night I decided that I will never drink alcohol again. It wasn't one of those hungover declarations after getting blackout drunk... I had a single cocktail the previous day ( Read more... ) -
Addendum
My last entry was entirely too whiny ( Read more... ) -
Give your life choices a long, hard look
Today, instead of going home to eat lunch, or eating lunch at all, I shut my office door and crawled underneath the desk. I took an hour-long nap. It was immensely satisfying ( Read more... ) -
I'm an adult now! I guess...
Things are different now. This is the other side of the divide, I guess; I exist in a state of contentment. My life is good. It’s weird to look back on my misery, the weeks of self-loathing, numbness, and despair, or the months of not wanting to leave my bed, ever, the months of having nothing to look forward to. This is what a life is supposed to ( Read more... ) -
Doubt comes in
The walls of my room are this delicate cerulean color, robin's eggshell almost, gorgeous. It reminds me of being inside a jewelry box ( Read more... )