Comments | oceansedge: It's been a rough week

oceansedge

It's been a rough week

Oct 28, 2005 10:20

I haven't been posting a lot this week, mostly my brain is full of jumbled thoughts ( Read more... )

ponderage, recovery, james, home, life in the real world, leo woman, prep for oz, depression

Comments 7

brujah October 28 2005, 15:51:54 UTC

You're in my thoughts, doll. Love you.

oceansedge October 28 2005, 15:54:02 UTC

*HUGS* thank you... you too dear.

One way or another - we'll both be OK.

brujah October 28 2005, 16:29:48 UTC

*nods*

Seems like a hell of a steep climb, right now, though.

But you're right. We're both going to be fine.

words_spoken October 28 2005, 16:08:27 UTC

I wish I had something enlightening to say, or could somehow wave a magic wand and make everything OK for you. Living apart from the one you love is hard work. Not knowing where your life is going, or when it's going to get moving is very frightening. We hang onto the familiar to try and stay sane, when what we really want to do is find the courage (and the means) to take a leap. Life is just so damn hard sometimes. :(

Thinking of you.

dhlawrence October 28 2005, 19:38:00 UTC

*hugs* Things will improve eventually.

ms_interpret October 28 2005, 20:53:06 UTC

*hugs* I wish there were something I could do.

catmcroy October 29 2005, 07:45:02 UTC

I won't say I don't cry easily - I do - I wear my emotions very close to the surface - what I don't do is let other people see the tears. I don't dare appear weak or needy, and it frightens me when I do. Being scared or needy was never something that was allowed. So I don't like how needy I've been lately - I can't help but figure eventually the people who care about me are just going to get tired and frustrated with it and tell me to 'buck up', and leave me to deal with it.

I'm the same way. I still apologize to my beloved for wasting his time by crying, and we've been together for almost 8 months (and he still answers me with, "Love, if you can't cry around me who you love and trust and I love you back, than who can you cry with? If you need to cry, then I'm here to hold you.")