What should an ugly human being expect. Why do I not have a chill button.

But here I am, believing in a magic that hasn't existed in me since that very day I murdered all hope of my happiness

Because I've never felt the same since

Everyone is a stranger to me

believing in myself is one of the biggest things. every single day i feel like a failure. every day i stare at my paper, full of the UGLIEST marks and mistakes TAUNTING ME. i fly into a rage all the time. i rip up 90% of what i make. I keep fuming until eventually my entire day is like a black cloudy storm. I keep visiting museums and stalking ( Read more... )

"The state of nausea that precedes vomiting, and from which vomiting will deliver us, encloses us on all sides. Yet it does not come from the outside to confine us. We are revolted from the inside; our depths smother beneath ourselves, our innards 'heave ( Read more... )

tell me how i sleep
tell me how i wake up
tell me how i dream

Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you'd just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”

"Look at it out here, it’s all falling apart. I’m erasing you and I’m happy!"

you know whats so frustrating about drawing is just knowing I cannot do it and i just stare at the paper obsessively starting over and scratching away i need just the right amount of freedom and the right amount of control and the paper is so white and so clean and so perfect and sensual i need the sharpest pencil i can get so i sharpen it ( Read more... )