my grandmother plays her cards carefully ( Read more... )

i think fur
is prettier
than skin

I also very much
like whiskers
and tails

and nice big paws
with fur sticking out
between toes in little tufts

I like being a human
but fur so soft and glossy
well, I can't see how that could be bad

first one little paw presses down into the blanket ( Read more... )

dusk settled down early this morning
unprepared to let the day
to give room even
to dawn

i look around, turn on the lights
and look again
this dreary wet and dark
this cellar of a ruin
it leaks in here
it stinks
and despite the cracks, the rot
there's no way out for me

this isn't hell
it's earth
so far below heaven

i will take some space ( Read more... )

and then one day
the rain started
the temperatures dropped
the girl with the long legs went home
and i
turned on the heater
watched the leaves of the kiwi on my balcony change color
and the little bat swoop through the darkening sky
petted my cat as he crawled onto my lap
and found myself home

why does keeping this
make me feel duplicitous
it's an outlet
and it's harmless

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and on this one quiet day
your words arrive so gently
in my inbox, that they make me feel
as if my life has down-filled padding

i'm sorry
i'm completely useless
i'm sorry, really
please don't stop writing
please don't stop writing me
that i can't find the answer in you
is something i can't make peace with