i certainly dont trust her. but u apparently do. you REALLY do. and that makes me wonder...could there be truth behind some of the things she says? see i can't trust her tho, cuz that would just contradict you. and that's the last thing i want..

once again...u wonder why i write in here? u just got off the phone with me, clearly on bad terms. u said straight up u are scared of me??? that makes me hate myself for being so strong. but now i'm here alone with no1 to talk to. i'm stressed out cuz i hate when ur mad at me. i hate MYSELF when ur mad at me. i didn't have the balls to say it ( Read more... )

i write these word tonight because, just like the thoughts that inspired all of my previouse entries, i don't want to lose them in the wide empty abis that is my poor memory. i sat here going over it in my head just now thinking that i won't put it on here, i'll just remember it so i can tell everyhting to allie as soon as her hockey practice is ( Read more... )

i wonder what she's like when she's with that other girl.. is it the way she and i are? or is it all her being tough. i hope i get the real her. i'm sure i do tho...cuz she knows i don't care what her hair n stuff looks like. i've seen her when she's just waking up. i've smelt her morning breath. i've seen her naked and everything that goes with ( Read more... )

Your results:
You are Superman
Superman
65%
Spider-Man
65%
The Flash
65%
Iron Man
65%
Supergirl
51%
Green Lantern
50%
Catwoman
50%
Hulk
45%
Robin
43%
Wonder Woman
41%
Batman
35%

You are mild-mannered, good,
strong and you love to help others.


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talking to her makes it all better. and she said "well my hair will grow back" :) lol i know it's stupid but that kinda says to me "don't worry baby, you don't like it n i don't plan on keeping it like this for long" we talked about other things too but GOODNIGHT

so i was watching scrubs reruns aaannnd ( Read more... )

k im not gonna go back to what i was talking about earlier...instead i will say this:

she talks about how she wants to chenge my style and my hair and my freaking fingers n hella other shit. but the only thing i would change on her is her wandering eye.

fuck. and depression apparently runs in my family..

i feel like shes lieing to me. maybe thinking it will protect me... fuck i just wanna know her and hear the truth about what she thinks of everything. i need to go pout curled up in bed tho. maybe ill write more tomorrow

i hate myself right now. and i will keep feeling this way untill they stop again. but then it'll be someone else and i'll hate myself again. fuck. maybe i just need to get a life and stop living in what "could" be..