Wow...I found Gen's dad on MySpace...I thought my chest was going to explode. This is awkward...knowing that he's on there and wondering if he gives a damn about her.

For those of you who have been waiting patiently the moment has a arrived, pregnant photos of moi. Enjoy.

( Preggo Pics )

My head is pounding as if someone's placed a gigantic vice grip around it and is squeezing the life out of it. I can't handle much more depression and anxiety, which consequently makes my head feel like a frisbee twice it's normal size, so I'm going to try counseling. I have to do something. My thoughts are unhealthy and my emotions are like the ( Read more... )

Abstract thoughts fill my head
Yet they refuse to be released

Shattered dreams fill my vision
Yet they refuse to die

Hope tries to fill my being
Yet I refuse to let it in

Genesis now recognizes that my big belly houses her baby brother. When she's sitting on my lap she'll pat my tummy and say in a hushed whisper, "Baby." Every now and then she'll lay her head on or kiss "the baby." I treasure those moments ( Read more... )

Well just in case anyone wonders what happened to the great Nike...my power source blew up. My brother, the lovely Jay, is letting us use his laptop for the time being and the part will be here within the next 2 weeks ( Read more... )

Well another friend of mine has passed this last Fri. Marisol Thompson, 26, mother of a 4 month old son, wife to a missionary in Guatemala, friend to all those she came in contact with. That makes 3 that I knew of...Shannon then informed me of some others that passed within the last 6 months and the total comes to 5. I find it ironic with all this ( Read more... )

After all the aches and pains, the indigestion, the morning sickness...in my book the worst part of pregnancy is when your undies get too small and you feel like a stuffed sausage about to explode ( Read more... )

I have been strongly advised and so I am now seeking professional help with all the mental and emotional problems I've been having. I hope this works, I'm tired of being a train wreck. I also hope that I don't have to go an anti-depressants after Zion's born because of post partum and all the shit that's going to go on after he's born. If I do, ( Read more... )

As my tummy gets larger my back hurts just a little more! Well I'm 6 months now and really starting to show! Zion's not an active baby, but when he is he makes his presence known ( Read more... )