Peace at last
After all the aches and pains, the indigestion, the morning sickness...in my book the worst part of pregnancy is when your undies get too small and you feel like a stuffed sausage about to explode!
On a different note. With all the hoopla of my son's father's family we've finally reached some reconciliation. I had a talk with his mother and explained to her about why I broke things off and that what happened was not consentual! She then understood why I'm making the decisions I'm making and can see everything from a woman's point of view. I felt a lot better getting the true story out and soon after I told my parents and pastor. I was done protecting someone that didn't need to be protected and if he isn't going to tell the true story about what happened then I will.
I have a lot of peace within myself now. Finally, I can enjoy this pregnancy and learn to love. This time has been hard, but due to the efforts of family, very close friends, and prayer I'm starting to heal from the things that happened, not only now but from 5 years ago when the majority of my problems started. Life is looking better!
On a different note. With all the hoopla of my son's father's family we've finally reached some reconciliation. I had a talk with his mother and explained to her about why I broke things off and that what happened was not consentual! She then understood why I'm making the decisions I'm making and can see everything from a woman's point of view. I felt a lot better getting the true story out and soon after I told my parents and pastor. I was done protecting someone that didn't need to be protected and if he isn't going to tell the true story about what happened then I will.
I have a lot of peace within myself now. Finally, I can enjoy this pregnancy and learn to love. This time has been hard, but due to the efforts of family, very close friends, and prayer I'm starting to heal from the things that happened, not only now but from 5 years ago when the majority of my problems started. Life is looking better!