Hibiscus's Proposal
Hibiscus said, "I'm going to change into something more comfortable."
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He came back a few minutes later wearing a bright blue button-down shirt. Those don't seem like pajamas. Does he want me to come on to him? He's smiling at me? What's that about?
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I raised my eyebrows at him. "You're looking for a reaction from me," I said. But what reaction is that? Can I finish typing this first and then find out?
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I looked back at my computer for a moment. He came toward me and then went on one knee before me. My eyes widened with realization. I pushed my wheeling desk a bit to the side so that all of my love was in view.
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I smiled at him and my heart leaped in my chest. His beautiful blue eyes stared into mine and he pulled out a wrapped box. The wrapping paper was green. I pulled it off carefully. The box inside was green. I opened it.
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Inside was a patterned ring. Smooth, without protrusions, as I'd requested. Silver in coloration, as I'd requested. Imperfect in its manufacturing, indicating that he also had followed my cost guideline.
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"Will you marry me?" he asked.
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I grinned broadly, slipping the ring on my finger. It fit perfectly. He'd sized my fingers, so we knew it would.
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"You know I will," I said. I kissed him, and smelled him. This scent. This man. My love, my love.
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"It is plated in white gold," Hibiscus said, "So it won't tarnish like silver."
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"Oh," I said, appreciating its metallic coloration that was neither silver nor pewter, and yet still in the gray-silver color spectrum.
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That night when we had sex I found myself saying, "Yes, yes, yes," repeatedly in a way I normally didn't.
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"To my question, earlier?" Hibiscus asked, pausing in his hypnotic rhythm.
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I nodded, "Yes," I said again.
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He smiled, nuzzled my neck and began his rhythm again.
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Context: On the flight from Silverstag Eco Hamlet area to Sunnyland to visit Nelum back on February 25th 2016, I'd realized I wanted an official proposal and ring from Hibiscus. I'd never had that experience, and felt like I'd somehow "missed out" on this special experience other women had before marriage. So I'd asked Hibiscus to give me this experience and told him what sort of ring I wanted. And so, he obliged.
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Below is the log of the entire day where Hibiscus proposed to me. The notes on how I'm feeling that follow most of the periods of time in the log are for my emotions log. I started a spreadsheet in March 2016 for logging how many minutes I feel each given emotion. So meh, for example, is a technical term I've created for feeling lethargic, depressed and/or lazy. And pleased is the term I use to indicate that something was pleasing, cheering, or pleasurable (but not in a sexual way, as I log that as aroused, devious or ecstatic, depending).
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Tuesday, April 19th 2016
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I dreamed that Bernie Sanders didn't win New York. Today we'll find out.
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9:00am to 10:00am - One hour with Hibiscus. First time experiencing orgasmic anal sex as if I had gspot (vaginal) stimulation.
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10:00 to 10:09am - Nine minutes pooping (and doing other bathroom things).
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10:09am to 10:16am - Watching a video. Checking facebook.
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10:16am to 10:38am - Transcribing - working on typing up everything I wrote down in the notebook while I was at the polyamory gathering and at Rooster's house for the two days before the poly gathering.
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10:38 to 10:45am - Feeling a bit lost and laying down. Acid reflux. Drinking water.
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Texted Hibiscus, "I donno what's goin' on with me that's got me so orgasmic, but gawd, I loved the feel of your cock in my ass this morning. I think I did cum off of it, but hard to say, as I'm not used to those sensations. Can't call it a g-spot orgasm without g-spot stimulation can I? But I definitely whited out with pleasure; twice." Or was it three or four times? I wondered after I sent the text.
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10:45am to 11:06am - Transcribing a little more. Paladin visiting me briefly before showering. Dozing off. Feeling guilty and sad.
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11:06am to 11:11am - Transcribing.
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11:11am to 11:23am - Saw Hibiscus on his way out to go vote. Saw Paladin drying off from the shower as I peed. Ate a minneola and a little goat's milk-fat. Feeling pretty good.
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11:23am to 12:42pm - Walking, talking with Paladin. Feeling peaceful, anxious, worried, hopeful. Sadness. Fear.
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12:42pm to 2:48pm - Talking with Paladin. Being laced into my corset. Aroused. Afraid. Hopeful. Paladin having sex with me. Anxious. Relief. Disappointment. Desperate. Sad (afterward). Masturbating. Pain (oops). Grateful. Frustrated. Showering with Paladin. Relief. Pleased. Amused.
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2:48pm to 4:52pm - Transcribing some more, then cuddling and napping with Paladin in my room.
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4:52pm to 8:26pm - Watching Hibiscus work in the basement on printed circuit board layout. Making salad, eating salad, having conversation with Paladin, Silverstag Eco Hamlet Steering meeting.
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8:26pm to 8:33pm - Hibiscus proposes to me. :)
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(Details on his proposal above.)
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8:33pm to 9:12pm - Paladin, Hibiscus and I talked a bit. Frustrated. Sad. Meh. Peaceful. Pleased.
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9:12pm to 9:44pm - First culling of photos from the poly gathering while sitting beside my darling, Hibiscus. Anxious. Amused.
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9:44pm to 10:54pm - Talking and sex with Hibiscus. Three orgasms, one vaginal and two neural/emotional.
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10:54pm to 11:05pm - Hibiscus sleeping (post-sex) while I do a little more transcribing.
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11:05pm to 12:49am - I had showed Hibiscus a lot of my photos on my computer, so he brought a box of his physical photos from my bedroom and began showing them to me. He showed me photos mostly from late 1980s to late 1990s. Feeling closer in ways, and more distant than others.
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Tripped out (in a good way) about the ring on my finger. Feeling pleased, but also meh.
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12:49am to 2:00am - Talking to sleepy Hibiscus. Working on his shoulder. He got angry with me for keeping him awake. Felt guilty about that (10 minutes), resentful that he didn't say anything sooner (3 minutes), but empathy for why he didn't (2 minutes), and aroused by his anger (2 minutes).
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2:00am to 2:20am - Getting closer to sleep.
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2:20am to 8:42am - Sleeping