wow i have been slacking hardcore on updateing this thing. im sorry to the few of you who actually read this ( Read more... )

well for the first weekend since i met Damon(2 months ago), i have stayed in MQT. wow. i thought that it would be good for me, well i've been extremly bored. gah! boredum sucks! and all ive wanted to do was be down in Esky, gettin ready to go out with the crew. but nooo im still in MQT miserable. but i am working on gettin over him...its a slow ( Read more... )

lets start on a good note..here is a pic of me and my best friend Nat

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ok so i got about 5 hours of sleep..broght my sisters to school and then went over to the old place to pack up more of my stuff..and to do my laundry. then went to my two classes for the day. then work at 2. now that sounds like a pretty decent day. but it so wasnt. since the second i woke up all i wanted to do was stay in bed and sleep and cry. ( Read more... )

well i am back at my mom's again. i dont know how well of a good thing that will be. i know that i am gonna go thru gas a lot quicker. i will have to get up even earlier so i make it to class ontime. ugh that means then i have to go to bed earlier..uh oh that could cause a problem. lol. i dont have good reception out there. so im gonna prolly miss ( Read more... )

for the past few days i have been in a sort of a daze. a daze of depression i supose. all i want is this feeling to go away. and a good feeling in return. i want something good to happen to me for once. everyone around me is happy with someone. and what do i have? nothing. all i have is this depression. and that doesnt keep me warm at nite. this ( Read more... )

ok so today kinda sucked! i barely had a voice again..but work didnt suck that much today. i was with the oldest age group today.. the school age. Jay was with me like the whole time so i didnt have that bad of a time today. exepet when i was thinkin about Damon. and that was all of the day. all i could think of was him. i miss him so much ( Read more... )

for the last about 2 weeks i have been in a kind of depression. and for that time i didnt realize what it was that was depressing me. tonite talking to Norm i realized it to its fullest. i am depressed about the fact that i feel like im just a weekend fling. like im jus being strung along. and i really dont like that. its jus happend to me way too ( Read more... )

friday nite after MythBusters me, Nat, Norm, Derek, and Hiedi all hung out at the house and drank a lil. then i went to bed extremly early i guess..i was upset that i didnt have anyone to cuddle with. Nat had Norm, Derek had Hiedi. and i was in a depressed kind of mood cuz Damon didnt make it up here for the nite ( Read more... )

well Norm and Damon didnt make it up here for the MYTHBUSTERS, and they sure missed an awesome apperance! the MYTHBUSTERS were A W E S O M E !!! since the guys didnt come up for it i gave their tickets to Derek and Kender. and I know for a fact that Kender was excited that he got to go. cuz MYTHBUSTERS sold out i guess sometime Monday i think. and ( Read more... )