I am staying up way too late being nostalgic again. I miss so many people. I'm sorry I am bad at keeping in touch.

i think this time it's for real. he's pretty perfect.

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i'm not deluding myself, because it's only been a week and a few days. i can remember that much. not coincidentally, it feels like it's been much longer. i feel like maybe our energy is sometimes on the same wavelength. i've never felt this way about anyone... which is saying a good amount, because i'm always super jazzed about any boy i start ( Read more... )

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this life is tiring. it can only get better. right?.... right?.... RIGHT!?

it's 4.20 am and i'm not awake on purpose. even though i never update this thing, i'm doing it twice in one day. i've lost a lot of weight and i don't/do like it, and it makes me sick. school is going to be stressful these next few weeks. he and i are doing this thing, but it's had some sad consequences, and nothing is forever. i'm just trying ( Read more... )

i feel a certain kind of awful.

run away, because i'm stuck.

what to do
when all your friends
have become friends
without you
and don't need you
....anymore.

feel like whining.

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