I went to see the psychologist today, and it went very well. They suggested I go to a place in Edinburgh sometime, it's not a mental institute or anything, just a somewhere for people with mental health problems to go to for a break. There's nothing wrong with me really, I just suffer with trauma and moderate depression and I lack confidence, I ( Read more... )

 My birthday turned out to be pretty shit. I fell out with dad, which left me feeling angry. I lost my cool a few times, and I never do. But the meal later on in Paco's was nice. After that, I went to a friend's, and he cheered me up a bit. By the time I got back, Mandy wanted me to come round, and by 10 we didn't have time for the cake. Earlier ( Read more... )

It's 8 minutes past midnight!

I really hate that my birthday is on 2nd May, because it's the day before the anniversary of my brother's death. I hate that every birthday I've ever had, has been a miserable one. I don't blame my mum for being extremely down, because it must be fucking heartbreaking losing your son. I feel resentful, but I have to be ( Read more... )

I've decided I'm not depressed. Besides, I have nothing to be depressed about! I'm just dead paranoid. I'll let the 'child' pyschologist decide what's what ( Read more... )

 I had ANOTHER asthma attack this afternoon. I didn't go to hospital thankfully, the inhaler eventually worked. I over-did it on the bike.

I was late taking my friend's dog out yesterday, and now she doesn't trust me. Fucking hell, one time! I was an hour late. She kept telling me I must be up for 9:30AM, for Katy's first walk, when she goes on ( Read more... )

 I waited until 6:30AM to go to sleep this morning. I didn't want my mind to wander, so I decided to stay up until I was physically tired. Surprisingly, I arise at 12:30PM. I took Harold out, and to my shock, I cleaned my room! I was in a weird happy mood. I decided to make the most of it, and take myself out to get a refund on my webcam. After 2 ( Read more... )

 I had a terrible night. It took me nearly 4 hours to get to sleep. All these thoughts were going round in my head, mostly dark, but some good. I had this one weird thought, where I was convinced I could count the hairs on my head. I was wide awake. I decided to write all my thoughts down in a notebook, but I ended up stabbing a hole through it ( Read more... )

Tomorrow should be fun. I'll be taking a urine sample for my friend's dog. I really don't want to.

What exciting things happened to me today? Well, I got to watch Pie in the Sky, which is about some fat guy who owns a restaurant, and, is a detective. Riveting. It was that or Murder, She Wrote.

People have a hard time understanding that I'm only 16. ( Read more... )

 Scott decided on Saturday, that his band was more important than his family, so left for Leamington Spa on Sunday for a meeting about his beloved band. I don't mind, though, I was glad to see him go.

Since he's gone, Mum's been in a right pissy mood and she's bringing me down with her. It seems I can't do anything right, without a row. She's doing ( Read more... )

 My wonderful brother has finally arrived! And oh my God, he's an even bigger idiot than before. I hope to God, he doesn't decide to leave the West Midlands to live up here. I'd kill myself, without a doubt. He says he's not happy with girlfriend Rachel, and has considered packing his bags and relocating here.

He hasn't even asked how I am, and most ( Read more... )