T-8 days til Valentine's Day. I have no idea what to get Matt. Also, T-10 days til  his birthday ( Read more... )

Desiderata ( Read more... )

"Breathe in. Breathe out. Move on."

Matt and I got into a fight last night about how he makes decisions without me. We talked it through. He said he'd try to do better. That was the end of it. Breathe in. Breathe out. Move on.

He'll be here on Tuesday. We'll spend 2 days together, then we'll go our separate ways for Christmas.

because I'm pretty sure I'm going to need it ( Read more... )

This year's Thanksgiving was spent in Seattle with Matt. I think it's the first one in a while that I've actually spent with someone. I flew out there the Friday before, immediately after work and returned to NYC on the red eye last night. I wish I had stayed. I do not feel confident at all that I made the right choice in moving here and lately it' ( Read more... )

Over 1 year since the last time I wrote in here. Apparently I tried to write 6 months ago, but failed. i'm going to try to keep a journal again after seeing a friend write in her LJ. A lot has happened that I don't care to remember. A lot has began that I'm still waiting to end. I made massive changes to my life, most for good I think. We'll see ( Read more... )

Recording it here because it's beautifully written and I want to remember it.

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You want to be helped. You want to experience your life. You want to feel yourself again; the owner not just of muscles, connective ( Read more... )

school starts monday-- it feels way too soon. a 3 week break is not enough ( Read more... )

the cops just drove off with the man who threatened to kill Knockout last summer. with his cane which allegedly contains a sword/knife thing. i hope he goes to jail.

I hate how hard it is to find an apartment in a "good" area when you have a pit mix, even when the dog is super friendly and non-aggressive. Co-op living may be the only option. Or staying in our current apt, which would be fine if it wasn't on the expensive side and if the damn landlords would at least fix something on the list that we gave them ( Read more... )