Goddess.  I'm so mixed up.  I'm so messed up.  I'm so screwed up.  I'm going crazy and I don't know what to do about it.  First I'm so high, and happy.  Then I crash adn wanna cry for no reason.  Plus, all today I felt sick.  Especailly when I ate.  But when I didn't eat I got stomache craps and slightly dizzy.  I barely made it through the last ( Read more... )

I just lost a whole huge LJ post the I worked of for a long time.  Grrr.  Trying to redo it!!  Its about how my life is soo Grrr and up and down.  yesh.  GRRRRR.

First!  Up!  Yesterday was fricking awesome.  After work, Erin and I wandered around looking in various shops, then ended up at Dairy Queen (I wanted Ice cream).  Where we saw Skylee, and ( Read more... )

*squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* I GOT THE MUTHER FUCKIN JOB!!! I GOT IT!!!  After like, 4 apps, and two interviews.I finally got the job!!!!!  At the LIBRARY!!!!  YAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYZ!!!!  Going to school now ^_^  Just had to say that!!

Okay, so I got an interveiw for the Monroe library.  I found out about it on thursday, but confirmed it today.  I was also shown the hours.  OMG.  I want this job.  the hours are PERFECT all after school, or during the day on saterday.  One's a late shift, sorta, but that works cause its near my house.  Plus, its not later then Mcdonalds.  I might ( Read more... )

Black Mask
Black mask, falling in waves
hides the windows to the soul
satin sheet like waterfall
yet wild and out of control
At times like dark wire
sharp whip, bringing pain
hides away the truth so that
the glint is not shown plain
Framing and blocking dark spark
which shows what lies inside
what almost is and emtpy shell
that dark emotions ride
Both passion ( Read more... )

Here are three poems I Wrote recently.  X posted to Myspace.

Broken Soul
The marks on my arms
At night they bleed
Showing the urge
The craving, the need

The tears on my face
Track a downward path
All which is hid
Behind an akward laugh

Deep down I hide
All that I'm feeling
My emotions and thoughts
I'm constantly sealing

But if you look hard
You still can see
The ( Read more... )

Sad.  Lj totally lost this awesometastic post of AIM convos between me and Spirk.  We were crazy.  And talked about things like buffy : )  YAY for Buffy!!  I stayed up till four something this morning watching random Buffy episodes.  Like the finally of season two.  OMG that mad me cry.  When Angel gets his soul back, and its all, crap acathala is ( Read more... )

She’s going on about sources and quotes… yeah, its FUCKING OP ED.  Quotes aren’t needed so much.  And you don’t actually need to put in sources ALL THE FUCKING TIME.  Let me go get you a fucking op-ed from a PROFFESIONAL paper.  I know, I  USED TO READ THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*post courtesy of kai, cause zandra cant*

Life is life.  NOt much time.  At library.  Work alot.  Move went well.  Now off of Fales Rd.  JOY.  Oh well, near woodinville and teh Barnes and Noble now, YAYAYAYAYAY.  Yeah.

So, I have decided I dont' fucking care anymore.  I don't.  I'm gonna be a bit more of a bitch, deal with it.  CAuse you know what?  FUCK YOU IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY TRUE OPINIONS.  Got it?  Also, FUCK YOU IF YOU DON'T CARE!!!

If you don't hear from me or see me for quite sometime, you may never again.  buh bye.