i had an interview with the YWCA today to work at their after/before school program. i think it went well. i definitely feel a little more confident after that interview. after such a long time of thinking i lost the ability to communicate, i do a fabulous job. right now there are no consistent positions open but i could be a substitute. which ( Read more... )

i can't stand you, with your condescending attitude and self rightousness, (see:confident of one's own righteousness, esp. when smugly moralistic and intolerant of the opinions and behavior of others.) anyone who thinks you are smarter than the average college student, (which includes yourself) would be sadly mistaken, you're just manipulative, " ( Read more... )

a part of me wants to study abroad. there are programs that cortland offer with internships that would look amazing on a resume. i also really want to grow as a person. i don't know if i want to not be around my family and michael for a semester... a COUNTRY away ( Read more... )

i went home on friday and stayed there til tuesday morning. i didn't want to go back. i started sobbing when i was hugging michael goodbye. i know it'll only be two weeks when i see him again... but time here goes by so slowly. i had a wonderful weekend, and that's another reason it sucked that i had to leave. i don't have anything close to ( Read more... )

i'm such a wreck

i'm so used to not being completely comfortable, i think i automatically search for that.

and then i wonder why i'm so unhappy
i don't know if i want to go home tomorrow

some of you may think you know me, but you will never know exactly who i am. The reason behind that, is the mere fact that i don't like to reveal too much about myself and maybe sometimes, i don't even know who i am. does anyone really? you, specifically, may think you have me figured out. you probably think that i am not capable of certain ( Read more... )

i was talking about something ( Read more... )

in 3 weeks i'm moving out of my house. i should start getting things together but i'm not. i'm really excited, but the closer the day comes the more nervous i get. i know i'm going to miss a lot of things at home... like my love, my family, my kitties, and an unexpected really good friend. i'm so excited for the changes moving away is going to ( Read more... )

i just signed up for netflix... pretty excited about that. i have sarah silverman's, "jesus is magic" at the top of my list. i'm finally feeling a little more comfortable with everything in my life. a little more independent especially. i feel like i finally have a friend where the give is equalling the take in our relationship and that is nice ( Read more... )